This is a picture of Esker Point in Groton, CT from the New London Day. It makes me miss Thomas even more, he loved summer and loved his hometown.

I do read the New London Day online everyday, and some of these pictures make me miss SouthEastern CT.

I love this picture.

I admit, I am addicted to TV and actor/actresses. I am saying this because today, at work I saw a real live actor, and stupid me said, "you look so familiar" idiot!! She was so nice and introduced herself as if, I am so dumb!!

To be honest, I don't agree with her politics but have always liked her movies, and other stuff, if I say anymore you might figure it out, and I can't have that. I know no one actually reads my blog so its ok, but just in case she has an alarm on her name, I dont want to do that.

Now, I am watching the L & O: CI season finale, I love Jeff Goldblum in this role, but admit I miss Vincent .

It is July 4th weekend! As far back as I can remember it was the fireworks that seemed to make the holiday special. When I was little and we would spend it with my dad, we go to his mom' s house, she had a pool, and all day we would swim and eat, then when the sun went down my dad would bring us over to Washington Park in Groton to watch the fireworks.

As, I got older, and boyfriends, we would watch them either at Ocean Beach in New London, or at Fort Griswold in Groton. Then it became bit of a competetion, Groton vs. New London. The Fireworks would be a week after the 4th, and the Gucci Brothers would put on quite a show with music and such. One year, an ex and I lived on Thames Street in Groton, and we thought we would be able to see them from our house, not so much, we walked up the street for a better view, they really were incredible.

The July 4th after 9/11, was the most moving I had ever seen, with patrotic music playing and looked around with the crowds, and knowing Groton/New London has a huge Navy and Coast Guard community made it seem surreal.

Last year, we watched them from our apartment up the street from the Lake, no music though which I find odd. This year, myself and my DOS have decided to do a cruise on the Lake with our boat and open it to the public, that I think will be so much fun!! The husband is working of course.

Snow fell on Mount Washington and temperatures were in the 30s, according to workers at the Mount Washington Observatory.Snow fell at 11 a.m., but it didn't accumulate. It changed to rain later in the morning.Mount Washington is known for some of the most severe weather in the world and until recently, it held the world record for strongest wind gust.


Love living in New Hampshire, today was so beautiful here on the Lake it was about 61 ' and sunny and breezy. It felt like September to me, which is my favorite time of year, always has been the renewal or beginning for me. Yes, it is my birthday month and then of course, when I was in school it was the beginning of the school year.

It is already July 1, it feels like we were just opening the hotel last year at this time, and it is already a year, it goes so fast. When you are a kid it feels forever to get to summer, but as an adult it comes and goes so fast. I admit, I am waiting for October which winds down the Wedding season, August and September are going to be soooo busy!! It starts full swing next weekend, and I have a few difficult brides so I am really waiting for August to be over!!

Why do I do this? I stress about it all the time until after the wedding is over, it doesn't make me happy anymore like it used to. I try to be up beat and happy for each bride which I am, but I am thinking the next 10 steps ahead to make their wedding a success. Then if I did not handle weddings what would I do?

This wedding is making me feel about what I want to do next and I do not have a plan. At this time, we are staying where we are in New Hampshire and in these jobs for the moment.

This weekend at work was busy.. Saturday went well for the wedding, then on Sunday everything that could go wrong did go wrong. The two parties on the Boat, not so well since the boat decided it did not want to work, and then the mother of the bride from Saturday wanted to argue with me, even after I gave in and gave her what she wanted. I snapped, which is so unprofessional, I let the GM and my DOS know I am sure a nasty letter or email is coming their way about me snapping at them.

Part of me doesn't care, but the fact I always try to be a professional, I am mad at myself beyond belief. The husband is on his 8 day straight and will not have a day off until July 5, because the bigwigs have decided to come in tomorrow, so I have to go to a rotary dinner alone and pay for two, I hate going alone to these things. We have had no time this week, we went away last weekend for a night, but it seems all we do is pass each other at work.

I miss hanging out with him, we have so much fun together, and right now it is work, sleep, work, sleep and I go to bed around 11pm he gets home around midnight, unwinds come to bed around 1am, and then I am up at 7am and he is still in bed. We did have this morning together but due to how hectic the weekend was, our ADD was in the fore front and neither one of us could focus. We did errands around the house, but it is a mess, and then he pretty much had to go to work.

I did help him plan out his Colorado trip in September, for his next SOBCON conference, he didn't get to go in May to Chicago, so he is so excited to go to Colorado, he wants me to go but I have a huge wedding that weekend and can not go, I was thinking of flying out on Sunday but instead he is flying back due to the cost of airline tickets, I would rather save the money for our Key West trip in Nov/Dec.

I want to own my own business, I hate working for someone else. It is so much harder than I thought it would be to start, one of my employees who is 19 has started his own business, how jealous am I? No matter what happens, he will be a success he is my hardest working employees.

I am sitting at home, I went to work this morning at 530am, and I came home at 10 of 5pm.Boss had to meet her bus tour, and I just didn't want anything to do with it or the dinner. She drives me crazy lately. She has been in quite the mood.

She is taking off on Monday, because she has to work on Sunday, join the crowd, you will leave early on Friday and then will not be in on Saturday so what the f***, it is not as if you work all that hard. Yeah, I am being petty, she keeps calling me her assistant, as if, I am no ones assistant, I am a professional and she should treat me like one.

The husband will be working on my day off Monday which sucks, and then on Tues. night we have to go to a dinner, so no time just us, we had a wonderful two days this week, but they are too few and in between. We are both working July 4 because some people dont like to work on July 4th, which is fine.. I will be bumbed if my family comes up, but I am taking Monday/Tuesday, so we are going to enjoy the Lake summer is here, and I don't want to let it pass us by. We have been working so hard, and we need our 2 days off together, and we do not have to go away just have quality time. I miss him when I am home and he is working, it stinks big time.

I am waiting for today to end, I was working all day for events that were on the Boat, but I knew what was happening the whole time. Ton ight is a wedding, and the couple was not all that nice this week, so it is upsetting.

I just want to get to 10pm without a distress call, now it is a wait and see game. I have already had a few glasses of wine, so not much I can do, but the husband is at work, and can handle anything that happens.

I admit I was MOD at the hotel all day, and really did not want to handle any complimants, I would have if it came down to it, but I wanted to come home. I went to work at 815am and the husband came in at 6pm, I left work at 7pm. So another week without really seeing him, tomorrow I will go in the morning for 2 hours, to make sure the billing is all set for weekend.

Then we are going to the Berkshires for the night at another of our hotels. I just want to get out of town, work may call but we can't run down to help them. We live right up the street so it is easy for them to call us and we come running. I would love to hang out on the Lake but it is most likely they will call no matter what.

Next week is another 8 hour day..

Its the Floodtide Restaurant at the Inn at Mystic. I worked here for so many years, and it was fun, exciting, tiring, stressful but for me it was home. I became friends with the people there, and we bonded, and built friendships and more. I met a man there within the first few days that I started, and it ended up in a 5 year whirlwind relationship. It did end because of his cheating, but it had to end for us both to go on and see where life would take us. I met my (2) best friends there, Thomas who I love beyond belief, we lived together for a few years, had some wonderful "floodtide" parties, and when you are in the restaurant business, you have no idea how close you become. My other was Claudette, who even to this day, we are very close. When my relationship fell apart we became friends and started traveling together it was incredible. We went to Hawaii, Antigua, Miami, Key West, Aruba it was so much fun traveling, now that I am married I miss how close we were, but we still get together alot. When I miscarried in Jan. 2006 she flew to NC to spend time with me and make sure I was ok, that is a true friend..

Lately, on facebook people from my Floodtide days have come out and commented on each others account, it is so much fun... I think if you are or have been in the business, should read "Waiters Rant" so many times it is incredible accurate for us who have been or still in the business.

I miss the fun we had at the "Flood Tide" but when I look back at it, I smile even as I write this, I remember how hard we would work on a Saturday night, and then our parties, remember sitting down after working 12 hours on Thanksgiving then having dinner, all together it was fun.

It has been quite the wet weekend up here in NH. I have either been hot, or cold no real comfort. Right now I feel as if everything is wet. We have both been working crazy hours, so even though we live and work together, I have barely seen my husband in about three weeks. Even today, he is going into the restaurant around 3pm to close. Last night, I worked 8am to 9pm and he worked 2pm-130am, long days! We knew it was going to be crazy for the summer after all it is tourist season.

The biggest problem is the gossip and backstabbing at work, I have been in the business along time, but have never seen so much of the backstabbing, or underhanded play to purposely hurt other people. I can't stand it, it is like being in high school all over again, except now we know it is manipulative and hurtful. In high school your hormones are raging and you are thinking with your heart not your head..

I have decided since he is working and nothing on tv, to have a "Gilmore Girls" marathon. I am going to go down to meet him for dinner, so at least we have a little time together. We do have tomorrow off together, most likely doing our errands and cleaning the house which I hate doing on our 1 day off together.

Last weekend, even out of work, our phones were ringing off the hook for work, YUKO! I am hoping no one calls for the next two days, I already went in this morning for 2 hours to make sure the wedding went fine after I left last night. Yes, I am venting about work, but only my perception right or wrong.

Lee wins! Does he looked stunned or what? He is so cute, and talented, I admit I was voting for Crystal but either one had the right to win. I love the fact they are both so talented and musicians not just singers.

I truly believe Crystal will still have a successful career, she is so talented and has a drive to succeed. I thought his version of Halijah last week was amazing.

Congratulations to Lee! It was a long drawn out night, Alice Cooper was in fine form, and Joe Crocker always my favorite, his raspy voice gives me chills. It was nice to see the remaining BEE GEES, and HALL AND OATS, which is what I remember from growing up (yes, old), but I think my favorite performance was Alanis Morrisette and Crystal. Simon leaving seemed to take over the show, but it was great to see the past winners of American Idol sing good-bye to him that was fun!!

I was correct on who was the final two, but picked the wrong winner.

Reality TV becomes so addicting to me. Sad sometimes. Ok. The City, what is Olivia's issues? Is she just jealous of Whitney? Why would you purposely sabotage a "friend" which I mean lightly the friend part. You are not the editor of "Elle" you work for them, and when you are supposedly making up to her, you walk out what kind of professional are you? If I was "Elle" I would think twice if I want this person representing me.

American Next Top Model, I was routing for Raina, but Krista came so far, so I think it was a good choice, it was a good season, some of these girls were so petty...

Down to the Final Three on American Idol, my (2) favorites are still there Crystal and Lee, Casey is so cute, and good in his niche, but feel it is Lee and Crystal who deserve to be in the final two what do you think?

Yesterday, the husband and I went for a long drive down to Hampton Beach and then along the coast. We stopped at a few places for a cocktail and mussels.

It was such a beautiful day, we both have been working so hard. I had to work in the morning and his own business building websites has been going great, except for some reason "hacking" has occurred on his website and (1) of his clients. So frustrating, so after he worked all morning, I pulled him away for awhile to relax and enjoy the day. I drove first, so he could just take in this beautiful day. The picture is from Rye , NH.

Today, he has to go back down to Portsmouth with his computer to see if there is a virus or something that is not blocking the hacking. We have another day off together, but he is busy working on his side business, tomorrow we both go back to the Inn and crazy week. I have to work again on Sunday then hopefully down to Mystic for my niece Sarah's confirmation. I definitely will not make the service but hopefully the party afterwards. We are so proud of her and when we were down in April, did not get to see them.

I was just looking at hotel rooms and amazed, how rates have gone down at Foxwoods and Mohegan Sun, we usually stay in Mystic, but I think it would be fun to stay somewhere else this time, and then go to the Spa on Monday. He deserves to relax alittle, the busy season is upon us, so we need to grab the time when we can.

This is a beautiful picture from Eastern Point, Groton, CT. I love this place. When I was a child we would go here with my grandmother and Aunt, and as we got older, we would still go to it.


It is a wonderful family beach.. Summer is coming, I am on a Lake now, but still wonderful.

Here is the husband in his natural habitat, reading and relaxing, great chair. Sheraton Portsmouth.

This is my hometown, Norwich CT. Last week, Norwich lost William Stanley, and he loved his hometown of Norwich. He wrote a column in the local papers called, "Once upon a time" and a story from his life and lives of people from Norwich were always the theme.

I had met Mr. Stanley a few times in my life in Norwich, my parents were very active in the politics of Norwich., my family owned a business in Norwich for years, and everyone knew him. I used to love to read his columns when I was away from Home, I have (1) of his books, it brings it back to me.

This past weekend, my sisters mentioned that one of her friends in Avon, CT where my sister has lived for about 20 years, had just met someone Lynne went to grade school with, my mother was in Mystic and the firemen were called to the house, and the firefighter mentioned he knew me from Norwich.

Norwich, is a small town, it may not seem it but everyone either knows you, or knows someone you know. When I moved her to Wolfeboro one of the first person I met was from Preston an knew alot of the boys, I knew from Preston (Preston boys were hot!) and then I met someone else in town, who's family is from Norwich, and I actually dated his younger brother and his sister was a good friend in high school. How small is the world or just how small is my hometown.

I don't go back that often these days, but Norwich will always be in my heart. My heart and wishes go out to William Stanley's, he was a wonderful man.

I will admit being addicted to " Reality TV", I love American Idol, but it was about time Tim Urban left, with his incredible smile, he will go far but he was not the best singer, he has personality so I am not worried about him. I love music but have n0 musical talent, I have lived with a musician for awhile in the 90's and loved him for his talent and passion which of course eventually pettered out with me anyway.. Anyway, I appreciate the talent..

Project Runway... Ok, if I could sew I would try out for this show.. I love fashion but can not even sew a button, truthfully if I could design anything it would be purses.. I love purses more than anything. I want Seth Aaron to win, I love Emilo at the beginning then his ego got in the way. I love Milo but her designs are all the same, executed incredible but all the same. Seth Aaron's have an edge and I love his work..

Mystic, CT one of my favorite places in the World. A place in my heart that will never go away.

I feel in love for the first time really in Mystic... To a "local" boy from the area, yes he broke my heart but would I trade that experience for anything? NO.. Mystic, made let me meet Claudette my best friend, Thomas who changed my life and I miss him everyday..., introduced me to the Flood tide, Inn at Mystic gave me my career really in hotel management... I love this place and it really is mystical.

This is a beautiful sunset at Gunstock this past summer when we went camping.


Yes, I went camping I know it is not something people would think for me, but it was alot of fun. When we lived in Maine we bought a great tent from LL Bean, and other camping equipment from Kittery Trading Post, the only thing for this year is an Air Mattress.

We are going again in May, and most likely will go back to Gunstock in July or somewhere else, the husband enjoys it so much, and surprisingly I have actually enjoyed myself.

I have found some pictures over the past year, we have been really enjoying NH, and go down to Boston alot more than ever, if we actually need a big city time, so easy straight down the highway.

My next post will be pictures over the last year.

I think Peppermint Patty is cool, for what reason I have no idea. One of the higher ups in the company calls me Patty after Peppermint Patty, the reason is my Director of Sales name is Lucy so I guess for him it is funny and easier to remember the Peanuts characters.

It has been raining since Friday, so today we are thinking of going down to Portsmouth and having Chinese and to see a movie, maybe "Clash of the Titans".

The husband caught a fish today! He is so proud, I am happy for him, it seemed for awhile everytime we went fishing everyone else was getting fish and nothing for him.

We are off tonight together so we are going out to dinner, he is soo happy...

I love when he is happy, yesterday he was not happy, I think the weather and work was getting to him. I know he is working at the restaurant for my success, and then his own business is becoming so busy, it is so hard..

Hopefully, by November he can concentrate on his own business. At least he caught a big fish.

Pictures of Tea party rally's in New England.

Ok, I am addicted to American Idol this year, first time since the first season. I really love all the contestants this year, but I am for Crystal and Lee, I believe these two stand out the most.
Aaaron Kelly- how young is he? So cute. Tim Urban mister smiley, this week, got a good review from the judges. He did deserve it this week, I think he would be a great spokesman for Crest, the man has a great smile.

Sad to see Kate and Andrew go, but it was time. This week was fun to see Adam Lambert and his hair, is he playing Elvis on stage? That would be perfect casting.. Siobhan really has a great voice, I just can not connect to her for some reason, can not deny her voice.
Michael Lynch was saved last week, and so glad, he seems like a giant teddy bear who can sing the blues for me anytime.

My friend Sherri posted this picture on her face book, this was definitely winter of 1981, and Celeste and I are dressed up for "Spirit Week" at NFA.

We were having so much fun, it brings back memories, we are not even friends anymore SAD!

High school comes and goes we all go through it, but who really remembers or cares why the friendships end?

I get very nostalgic sometimes, but I thought I would share another picture of my past. Something fun on Tax Day.. Husband is finally doing his taxes, mine were done last week.

Tomorrow, is tax day. What are you planning? My husband and I will be attending (2) Tea Party Demonstrations, 1. In Concord, NH and the other in Manchester, NH.

Below is the email we received. Now, this is my first one, so I am looking forward to seeing what happens. I believe we all have the right to our beliefs without persecution, or name calling.

Dear Tea Partiers;
This is a NH Tea Party Coalition EXTRA eblast being sent to you on April 13, 2010 for some last minute TEA PARTY DETAILS for April 15, 2010.
WE HOPE TO SEE YOU at the TEA PARTY in MANCHESTER NH on APRIL 15 at 5:30 PM in Victory Park which is between Chestnut Street and the Manchester City Library.
On Chestnut Street there is a parking garage and along Concord Street there is a parking lot with certain spaces designated for the general public. Please watch for the time allotment on the meters and at what time of day the metering stops.
WE HAVE CONFIRMED BOTH Michigan's US Congressman Thaddeus McCotter (most recently seen on RedEye) and former US Senator from NH Gordon Humphrey as our KEYNOTE SPEAKERS for the Tea Party in Manchester on April 15th, 2010 at 5:30 PM. Thom Thomson will also speak.
Further, we will have some of the representatives from our supporting groups each speak to you briefly. Below is a list of groups that will have tables/speakers and also the major candidates who will have tables. (All candidates from all parties were invited to have this opportunity) Note: Major candidates will not speak but they or their representatives can meet and talk with you individually at their tables.
***Please stop by the booth with the green canopy and yellow NHTPC banner and pick up a TOS notice. We don't anticipate any crashers, but just in case, good to know what to do. There will be 4 officers on the premises.
You may also download the TOS here: http://www.nhteapartycoalition.org/tea/aboutjoin/tea-party-rules-and-event-tos/ Here are some ideas for signs that address current issues of concern. Often you can use these slogans to start a conversation which will educate others.
STATEAx the Tax (all 70 of the new ones imposed by this NH legislature - take your pick of which!)Low Taxes are the Result of Low SpendingStop the $300 Million Lynch Deficit Affirm States Rights - Keep Feds Out (especially pertains to health mandates which are going to cost states dearly)Second Amendment - It's My RIGHT (NH whittling away at this)Stop the LYNCHING of New Hampshire!
FEDERALHANDS OFF My IRANO VAT Tax (Value Added Tax would tax manufacturers and be passed on to you in costs of goods)NO Cap and Tax (EPA will say CO2 is poison and taxes you on energy consumption - Waxman/Markey Bill HR 2454)Hands Off the People's Internet (Net Neutrality would impose controls)Audit the Fed (Ben Bernanke & Bankers talk about new taxes on us while taking huge bailouts and bonuses and manipulating the interest rates, printing worthless paper money, and causing inflation)Stimulus = Bigger Government (did not create a single private sector job)NO Government Controlled Media (Marc Lloyd wants 'fairness doctrine' - government control over airwaves and reporters to work for government which is almost de facto now)Restore the Republic
GENERALStop Taxing the Middle ClassStop the SpendingVote them ALL Out in 2010Time to Clean House, and Senate Too!Stop Redistributing My Wealth
Here is what we think is a complete list as of this hour:
Representative/Marine Al Baldasaro will lead the Pledge of Allegiance with Gold/Blue Star Moms EMCEE - Grant Bosse from NH Watchdog Keynote Speakers are Congressman Thaddeus McCotter, former US Senator Gordon Humphrey and Thom Thomson, son of former NH Governor Meldrim Thomson who coined the phrases, "Low Taxes are the Result of Low Spending" and "Ax the Tax".
GROUPS who will be there and SPEAKERS (not necessarily in this order and not all groups will speak)Because this is ever-changing, there may be more than this actually coming.
Americans For Prosperity NH - Corey Lewandowski, NH CoordinatorAmerican Majority - Dave TilleCoalition of NH Taxpayers- Ed Naile, ChairCornerstone Policy Research-Action - Kevin Smith, DirectorConcerned Women of America-NH - Elaine Driscoll, ChairGraniteGrok - Skip Murphy, and others on Blogger's RowGranite State Taxpayers - Steve StepanekLibertarian Party of NH - Rich TomassoManchester 912 - Pam Smith, OrganizerNashua 912 - Lorna Andoscia, OrganizerNH Advantage Coalition - Senator George Lovejoy NH Federated Republican Women - Jenn Wrobleski NH Firearms Coalition - Dave WheelerNH Liberty Alliance - Dan Itse, NH State RepresentativeNH Right To Life - Bill SmithRepublican Liberty Caucus NH - Jim Forsythe Rochester 912 - Jerry DeLemusRockingham County 912 - Ron Marchand10th Amendment - Bob Silva
CANDIDATES WHO WILL HAVE A PRESENCE/TABLE
US SENATOR
Ayotte, Kelly - RBinnie, William – R Lamontagne, Ovide - R
US CONGRESS from NH – District 1
Ashooh, Richard - RBestani, Bob - RGuinta, Frank – R US CONGRESS from NH – District 2
Giuda, Robert – R GOVERNOR OF NH
Kimball, Jack – RStephen, John - R
STATE OFFICES
Jim Forsythe - State SenateBrendan Kelly - State Rep

SEE YOU ON THE 15th!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- The NH Tea Party Organizers

Oh, my look at the hair, and the high waisted jeans, I am guessin this would be around 1986 or '87. I thought I looked great. Way TOO MUCH HAIR..

This was in College, my old boyfriend Todd, in the front sent me all these pictures and I had to upload a few of them, to see how thin I was at one time.

The one with short hair is from Weirs Beach in about 1988 or '89, and now I live up here, was this a sign?

I just thought this was funny, on the New London Day webpage is "peeps" and this one caught my attention.

I am going to my First Tea Party on Thursday, can't wait to see what it is like.

I am so excited, on Thursday, April 15 the husband and I are going to a Tea Party. I want to see what is happening and I have not been to anything, the husband of course has been involved, so I rearranged my schedule to see what is happening.

I am thinking of bringing our video camera to catch what is happening, and then I can see it later, and see if worth it to put on line. I want to take a stand so this is huge for me, my husband is always vocal on his feelings on the health care issue, I want to go into it with and open mind.

It is Easter Sunday, I am sitting at the front desk here at the Inn, to work the 1st shift. I always enjoy working the front desk, for the fact, I get to meet the guests, here the comments and see what we are doing successful or not successful depending. We are having an Easter Brunch, we did make the mistake of not informing our guests there would be "NO" breakfast in the restaurant today, only a continental served in the lobby. We need to inform guests, only (1) Person was upset and we did manage to help him out, that does not excuse our lack of informing our guests.

Easter Brunch is going well, right now it is 136pm, and it reminds me of when I would work a big brunch at the Floodtide restaurant in Mystic, usually I would either hostess, food runner or bus tables, it was a way not be scheduled on a Sunday night. I hate working Sunday nights, it seems the people that have no clue how to act in public, go out on Sunday nights, in the business, we would call it amateur night. In the business, you notice some interesting behavior by people.

Friday night, is more of a "tavern/bar" crowd people after work, singles, people who have decided to not cook, it is less contrived. Saturday night, date night, out with group of friends, definately more planned and more uppidity. I really depends on the type of restuarant and location. In Mystic, where I worked was a high end restaurant, known for tableside presentations, romance, great business dinners, long leisurely dinners. Now, it has changed with the times, I miss it sometimes.

Where we work now, I really have nothing to do with the restaurant, I will help out if need be, due to the husband is the Manager, I prefer not to work with him as my boss, so its best if I stay out of it. He is working tonight, due to we have no children and other people want to spend it with their families, most likely will come back around 7pm and have dinner with him.

Holiday's are tough in the business, it is a hotel/resort so we are open everyday of the year and 24 hours a day, so someone always has to work. So, I dressed up for the holiday and then when i go home it will be "SHORTS" it is 70' and beautiful out, unbelievable the first week of April. This has been such a mild winter and it really feels like spring, YEAH!! The last few years it seemed winter forever, two weeks of spring and right into summer, this year seems more relaxed, and reminds me of renewing and when I was younger.

When you in the hospitality business you are thinking 6 months to a year ahead for business. I am looking now for Holiday Parties, and next years wedding season, so it is sometimes hard to live in the moment, and enjoy the time. Lately, my past has been coming back to me in different ways, and makes me wonder at some of my decisions?

I do wonder if I had made some different decisions where I would be today? Then I worry that I would not have this wonderful life, I have a great husband, we live in such a beautiful spot, and are living well. Nothing extravagant but gives us enough money to have fun, travel and enjoy ourselves. We may never be rich in the money sense, but definately in every other sense we are already "RICH".

I am angry.. First thing I am upset about is the town outside of Boston, who did nothing for this poor girl who committed suicide because of bullying, why did the school after knowing what was happening help this poor girl?

Those 9 kids lives are over, well at least your alive are you proud of yourselves for what you did to this poor girl? I have no sympathy for you...

The 3 judges in the 4th district court who charged the father whose son's funeral was protested, are you just stupid? Yes, 1st amendment rights, but why charge him as if he has not lost enough for the country?

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Yes, this is the group who protested funerals, what kind of people are you? Oh, yeah Racist...

GIve me a break when someone disagrees with Obama's plans we are racist, it can't be just because we disagree with what the government is doing, it really is big brother time, 20 years later than the book but all the same isn't it.</sup>

There is a power struggle at work, it is crazy! I am caught in the middle between two bosses,
I do not know what is true anymore!!

My husband listens but has no clue on how I feel or does not know how I feel, it is crazy.. What do you do? I am upset because my direct boss talks to me as I am a idiot, and the other one is using me to get back at my direct boss, it is nuts!!

I hate being in the middle I feel like I did when my parents divorced, is this what happens when you are in business?

We had such a nice two days off together. Yesterday, we went down to Portsmouth, for Chinese buffet then went to the movies. We saw, Hot Tub Time Machine. I am a HUGE!! John Cusak fan, have been for years. I have seen almost all of his films and only because of him, I love when he is with his sister or Jeremy Piven.

Since, I was in College in the 80's this movie was fun.. It brought back memories, the first being the awful clothes, how bright was it back then? How many layers could you wear? How many colors, the brighter the better it seemed.. I laughed so hard, it did make you wonder what you would do if you had the chance to go back, what would you change? Would you stay or go back to the present?

I love time travel and find it fascinating to imagine what I would change or do it if it happened to me. What would you do?

I have not written in awhile, due to it has been a very busy week! First, work has been really busy, my bride this weekend was a bit hard, especially since she got quite the deal in order to have a March wedding.

Then we have "Healthcare" can you believe it passed? Maybe if everyone quit their jobs and collected, "unemployment" and then have the government pay our health insurance is that the country we all expected?

I thought, and was taught you work for everything you get, so why are they handing it to us? To control us? To run our lives? Have you read 1984? Big brother seems to be coming true years later, but non the less.

Canada just won the gold for Hockey against the USA, even though I am disappointed they really worked hard for it and deserve it very much.

I do love hockey, husband read a book, while I watched a game, so nice he is not a sports crazy person about sports.

Reality TV: Why do I start watching and can't stop? Are we all just "Peeping Tom's" in a safe way? Then you have to wonder why people are on these shows, just to be famous does that make you better than me? No, and some of these shows don't exactly show you good now do they?


"Bad Girls Club" - Natalie get over yourself, you walked out on a bill because supposedly, you run LA, who are you? Annie, you are so manipulative, what you did to Kate was awful, and she just had no idea, I find messing with someone food is so bad..

Project Runway: I love Seth Aaron and Emilio's clothes, but then Ben and Anthony surprise me, I was not surprised that Amy was in the bottom this week but something about her I believe will pull it out. I love Tim Gunn...
Make it work, I use it myself at work all the time.

Keeping up with the Kardashians -Scott needs to go, what an idiot, you knew how important that dinner was for Kim and Kris why act like a jerk? Kourtney is carrying your child, and you are one, so get a real job and get over yourself..

Where is my BIG BROTHER?

American Idol : Well I have not watched this since the first season, I like to watch the auditions, but for some reason the chick with dread locks has sucked me in and now I want to see how far she goes.

Real Housewives of the OC: What is up with Alexis? Who are you? I am looking forward to next weeks show, because I see Laurie is going to be on the finale, I liked it when it was Laurie, Vicki, Tamara, Jena and Tammy. Now, we have Lynn who is nice, but spacey, Alexis who can't go anywhere without her husband what is that? Gretchen why would you start a business in this economy?

Real Housewives of NYC start next week, YEAH! That looks so interesting.

Millionaire Matchmaker, I was a huge fan until I found out that it is not real, those people are not really her clients, so they are not worth talking about now are they?

Work has been on my nerves lately and I am stressing about the fact, I still have a job, am I hoping to keep it or am I worried that I may lose it?

Part of me wouldn't mind being unemployed yet again, I loved our traveling last year, but the other part of me hated being broke and not being able to do anything. Am I compeletely crazy or what?

The husband and I have been so attached lately, it is so hard to be apart, is that pathetic or what? Yes, I am rambling yet again!!

Ok, Rosie O'Donnell have obviously nothing else to do but bash people who actually do work and have "real" Opinions. These two women just make themselves sound more ignorant with each rant. Janeane was so awful and ill informed when the "Tea Parties" were happening, and she obviously has not learned anything what so ever.

Below is part of their radio rant,what is your opinion?

JANEANE GAROFALO: I don't know what makes one a Rush Limbaugh fan. [...]

ROSIE O' DONNELL: And how is it that he's able to be a junkie, literally, and sort of still have reverence, respect, and be heralded as the leader of these, you know...

GAROFALO: Well, look at who he's talking to.

O'DONNELL: I know.

GAROFALO: Look at who he's talking to.

O'DONNELL: Those are the kind of people who if it was a junkie, right? What, because he buys the Oxycontin from a doctor?

GAROFALO: Sure, bought it's very elastic, isn't it? It's always a double standard. When it comes to rightwingers, whatever works for them works. [...]

GAROFALO: But here's another thing with the type of mindset, like, like, I keep saying rightwinger, I don't know what else to call it. A person that lacks empathy...Karl Rove, Frank Luntz, the guy who comes up with the talking points at these meetings. Grover Norquist. They have no shame. You can't embarrass them. They have no problem, and they know that they, who they're lying to. The base if you will. It need not be given facts, need not be fair-minded or open-minded to anything. And you, when you talk that way to people, the way Rush talks to people, the way he lies to people, you can't have respect for him. You couldn't possibly respect who's listening to you if you lied to them the way that they do. They use these people as a blunt instrument.

O'DONNELL: Do you think that they believe it? Rush or Glenn Beck or those people?

GAROFALO: It depends. Sometimes, like, when you meet Sean Hannity, you think, "Oh, he doesn't know he's lying." Some people like the "Fox & Friends" morning douchebags, on "Fox & Friends," real, really limited. You can just see it when you go on the show. Don't make that mistake, don't do that...Brian Kilmeade, they just, you get the sense they don't know they're lying. And they don't care. Then, Greta Van Susteren, Brit Hume, they do know they're lying.

Oy. Are there REALLY people in America that agree with these buffoons?

Heaven help us.

—Noel Sheppard is the Associate Editor of NewsBusters.

Read more: http://newsbusters.org/blogs/noel-sheppard/2010/02/16/janeane-garofalo-and-rosie-odonnell-attack-limbaugh-beck-hannity-hume#ixzz0fve6MMdU

Well its February 14, Valentine's Day, and my husband and I are watching, "wedding singer" and trying to not think of the fact we have to go to work around 1pm and the husband will end up getting stuck at work, we both know it no matter how hard we think he will be out in under 2 hours. HA!HA!

Last night, the restaurant got slammed, and we have a function in the ballroom. I love being busy, but we are both getting too old to work the shifts, I worked 13 hours yesterday, he worked 12 hours, his was on his feet the whole time, I was on my feet from 3pm-9pm, so not as bad, just long!! I realize we will be busy in the summer, and we want it to happen but it is crazy, when you get (1) busy week in the summer.

I have been asked by many of the employees, "Why are you always here? No one else seems to be, meaning my two bosses. " Another one, told me I should get more respect for all I do to bring business into the hotel. It is so nice to hear, but I am not great at taking compliments, and not putting down other staff. I just usually nod, or smile and not say anything so I don't say the wrong thing.

I just got home from an After Hours Chamber event, it was at a Flower shop and was pretty good until it got really crowded, and hot. I only stayed about an hour, I realize these events are for networking, but it is the worse part of my job. I do not like to network, it is amazing how boring and how I forget how to talk at these things.

Sometimes I can be shy, which anyone who knows me is laughing right now, I may not always seem it but I can be really shy when I feel uncomfortable. When I got home and went on Facebook, I saw so many pictures from my home town. I grew up in Norwich,CT and it is not really the most exciting place but it is also not very rural either.

I was at a Career Day at the local high school this week, and I was remembering when I was in high school, all I wanted to do was get out of Norwich and see the world. I have traveled but really have only lived between Norwich, Mystic, Hartford CT then in 2005 after I got married my husband and I moved to NC then to ME and now in NH, it really is not that far, but I feel it was right for me.

I love Facebook, I see what old friends are doing and people I do wonder what ever happened to people. It is fun to see what people are doing now, and to see if they have lived up to what it says under their high school photo. Mine did not, I wanted to be a journalist and newspaper reporter, of course if you read my blog you see I am not a great writer but I am enthusatic.

Robert Gibbs has no room to talk, he looks and acts like "Howdy Dowdy" and he was a puppet. What does that say about him?

This is from FOX NEWS:

"White House Press Secretary Robert Gibbs took a swipe at Sarah Palin Tuesday, mimicking the former vice presidential candidate's decision to use her hand as a notepad at the National Tea Party Convention last week.
At the daily press briefing, Gibb showed his left hand with writing on it, which apparently was his grocery list to purchase ahead of the expected snowstorm.
Scrawled on his hand were :
-- Milk
-- Bread (crossed out)
-- Eggs
-- Hope
-- Change
The press secretary said he crossed out bread, just so I can make pancakes."
Palin had seveto mock her, in particular, after she joked about President Obama's extensive use of the teleprompter. "

I wish I could of been at the Tea Party, I am sure it was quite the show.

It has been a long week at work, I have worked straight since last Monday. I have (1) more day to go, it will be a long day, alot of appointments. I am so very sick of my General Manager telling me I have to close the deal, does she not realize I know that? NOT for work, but for myself, I want to prove I know my job. I get annoyed with her, she says it in a way as if I am an idiot.

I have to watch over everything and I am so very tired, she thinks I am younger than I am or does not realize I have a life too, I never see my husband either, because I made him take this damn job. I did buy a lottery ticket from the very unpleasant cashier at the NH Liquor Store here in town. I like the other lady who is always pleasant helpful and nice. I am in customer service and when I feel I am not being very nice, I reprimand myself each time. I realize sometimes it is so hard to be pleasant for me it is lack of sleep, which has been the last few weeks.

My sales are off because of it, it seems the older you get the harder it is to stay up late. My head has a problem shutting off when I try to sleep. I try not to day dream about what it would be like to win the lottery, did you see that woman in OHIO, she won and then gone, So SAD!

Politically, STATE OF THE UNION: Do we believe him or not? He has not proven himself yet, so why now? Just a thought.

Today, at the bridal show someone asked me how to describe Wolfeboro, NH where I live. I had to think about it, and am still thinking, it is like a "Hamlet" is that the right word? What I mean is, it seems to be in the middle of nowhere, when you are driving on Rt.28, it just pops up, after you go through the woods. If you did not know the area, you may be saying where are they taking me?

Once you get here though it is amazing, in the summer you see Lake Winnepesaukee and want to immediately own a boat, or know someone who owns a boat, just to get on the Lake. It is so beautiful, in the winter you can hear the snowmobilers up and down the Lake and see the "Bob" huts of the ice fishermen. In the Spring, as you watch the snow finally melt after what seems the longest winter ever.. and the flowers start to bloom and the color back in the trees, it is such a rebirth it is amazing to watch. My favorite time is at the end of summer when autumn starts to take shape and colors go from Green to orange, reds, and vibrant yellows that you can't believe another summer has come and gone but look forward to putting on the sweaters and watching the colors overtake your senses.

I grew up a New England girl, and still after all this time I love watching the colors change, and feel like fall is my new year. I don't judge it by the new year, I judge it by the seasons. One because growing up school began in the fall and you could reinvent yourself over every year, and then in hospitality working weddings, you pretty much wait until the last wedding happens usually around October 20 time and know the bulk of the weddings are over. You may have a few weddings but not every weekend, and sometimes 2 or 3 a day on a Saturday.

We moved to Wolfeboro, NH on February 9, 2009, coming up on a year, and no plans to go anywhere for at least another year or two. We are both settling into the NH and the community, we have joined the Chamber, I joined Rotary and we both enjoy the feeling of being part of a community and making a difference.

As, I watch the snow outside, I know even though it is cold and wet right now, soon enough the spring will be here, and everything will be new and fresh again. When you live here you enjoy all the seasons. Living in NC it was nice not to have to deal with snow, but you also don't have a fall either. I am glad we are back in New England. So for now we are not moving on again.

I am watching :"Gilmore Girls" again. It is Saturday night and I am sitting here trying not to be hungry, and having a cocktail. It would be nice if it wasn't for the fact, I really do not have another day off until next weekend. I don't have whole days on Monday and Wednesday, but it is still being at work.

I just remembered I had someone to call today, and forgot and it is too late now. Why do I forget these things? I worry about myself, I did send out (2) contracts today, (1) was for another wedding and the other for a rehearsal dinner, it is shaping up to be a busy season this summer.

I am still trying to prove myself to my boss, she made a comment about 2 months ago, and I am still hurt by it and am damn determined to prove I am a sales person and can do my job. You would think I would get over it, but not happening.

Democrats are scrambling big time. Its the most fun to watch it, but in my heart I am wondering how they are going to spin this, even though I did not vote for President Obama, when you see pictures of him, it is amazing how much he has aged in the past year. It must be nice to have all that power do you realize how much stress and work the position really is?

Did you really think the Bush Administration were lying about the threat of terrorism and the people do not want the "healthcare" plan? I think this election is a wake up call to the people in Congress how many will seek 'early retirement" so they can leave on their own terms, November election is going to be so interesting.

What do you think is going to happen?

Yesterday, was an amazing political race in MA. Scott Brown beat Martha Coakley for US Senator the seat left by the late Sen. Ted Kennedy, the first time a Republican held that seat since 1972.

It is a huge blow to Obama's white house, and the democrats are now running scared. It is not necessarily that I want the GOP, I just do not want the Health Plan and I am not sure that the government needs to be in everything in our lives.

It will be very interesting to see what happens when he actually takes office, and if the democrats are going to still try to sneak everything in before he takes office.

Today, was a LONG, LONG DAY! at work. I went in at 8:15am and got home around 9pm. I did have dinner, and a few glasses of wine. My problem was with talking all day long. I love weddings, which is quite obvious due to the fact I have been selling and working weddings for over 15 years.

My back hurts, I am despising my own voice. Yes, it is possible to hate your own voice. I am going snow tubing tomorrow, I can not wait to go, I figure it will definately get my frustration and fun out.

Work has been busy lately. It is a great busy, but sometimes I do get overwhelmed. I did think about changing my job to the Front Desk Manager but the money is less, sometimes the brides can be a bit overwhelming and I have done this for 15 years, and I think I really need another route in the business. I need to be challenged more, and I love hospitality. I really like the Wolfeboro Inn and the hospitality company I work for, I was just thinking it might make me more rounded, but after talking to the higher ups, it might not be the best.

I can not really afford the pay cut, but I would handle it, if I thought they had faith in me doing the position. I really am ok with everything happening, but you get to a place in your career and your life and you wonder if something else would work better for your lifestyle. During wedding season, you are working so many more hours then the winter, but in the winter you are preparing for the season so it really does not always feel as if you can ever have a break. I come home and still think of work, it is hard to shut down.

Today, I felt like one of those annoying people with phones in their hands and ear. I was working a bridal show, which was good but during the down time, I called people and was worried about the snow. I made it home with no incidents and then I dropped off all the stuff at work, so I do not have to go into work tomorrow. Its been a long week, and now we are coming up on a dead time at work.

I really am working toward my goal to get those weddings I need to keep the "Big" boss off my back. The husband is at work, so I am watching "Gilmore Girls" Season 2, yet again. I started ripping down the christmas decorations this morning and made the bed with new sheets, and kind of wishing it was time to go to bed, it is only 543pm too early?

Its nice for the moment not to be thinking of moving yet again, if something happens we will be fine, but right now, I am loving living here and being part of a community.

It has been quite the year. We started out in Hilton Head, SC unemployed and looking for work. In February, I got a job opportunity in Wolfeboro, NH we moved up here on Feb.10, 2009. We moved into a place close to town and work, so we saved money by really only needing (1) Car.

The snow started and did not seem to stop, as we blew into March and April, the hotel under construction, trying to ease all the brides minds, we would be ready and open by Memorial Day. We had a group in early May, and had everything in the Lobby, and served meals out of a guest room, we pulled together and made it happen. Then the "Opening" on Memorial Day weekend it was incredible, busy, a few bumps.

Then in June we lost our chef, he left, our restaurant manager was not doing much better, she was gone by the end of June. The rain in June kept coming but would clear up enough for the brides to get their perfect ceremony and pictures over the Lake. July 4, we handed out hotdogs and lemonade during the parade. Met Jimmy Fallon and saw Justin Long and Drew Barrymore, it was quite festive. Then we watched all the fireworks over the Lake.

Our new restaurant manager started so did our new Chef. In July, we went camping yes me, to Gunstock for a weekend, so much fun, lots to do, he fished, I laid out in the sun, we walked around (not hiking) just relaxing, it was a great weekend.

In August, we went to Boston for a weekend, took incredible pictures had a great dinner. Then we lost another restaurant manager at the hotel, so they asked my husband to come in and take over the position. We decided it would be a good thing for both us, and we do not really "work"together. Then he started in September, for about a week, then we went down to Atlanta and stayed at Chateau Elan, it was a beautiful place, and a great weekend.

In September, Tom and Claudette came out for a weekend, we went to North Conway, laughed alot and Tom decided to come up New Years Eve. It was so wonderful to have my friends be able to visit, living only 4 hours away is great.

Then in October the husband hurt his ankle at work, then in mid October, he got incredibly sick, we could not figure it out, he could not hold anything down and was so very sick, lost 30lbs in about 4 weeks. It lasted another two weeks before we found out what was wrong right before Thanksgiving. On Halloween, we stood outside in the wonderful weather and handed out candy, our street comes alive every house participates. If the husband wasn't so sick,we most likely would of had even more fun, but he was bundled up as if it was freezing.

Thanksgiving brought my family up for the holiday, I of course, was stressing beyond belief but it was such a good time, we had a late dinner so we could both join them, it was a good time by everyone. On Friday, it started to rain, we had a big breakfast and said our good byes. Then the Holiday parties began, it was a worldwind in December then we went to CT with his folks who came out for the holiday, our 2nd christmas with them since 2005. They got to know my family more, good or not? I think it was a success, and now we are on New Years Eve.

The husband is already at work, it is going to be a long day for him. I am taking the morning , going in around 2pm, I have a wedding tonight, and a nice dinner with my friend Tom around 9pm. I just set the table for tomorrows breakfast and doing some cleaning so we can relax tomorrow, we will both be tired, but I think the husband will be wiped out, it has been so busy at work all week, he has been home so late.

Friend/Family News:
Our Friend Christian proposed to his girl Jen, next Dec. wedding, I am going to find them the best place.
Chef Steve proposed to Blake on Christmas Eve, we got them a joint Christmas/Engagement gift.
My cousin "D' dink of a husband left her two weeks before and he was scheming behind her back for about 2 months. DINK!! The family believes for the best, but she is so hurt we all keeping our mouth shut.

We are going to celebrate our 5th wedding anniversary in 2010, we have decided on a long weekend in Boston, I am planning it and so excited. Thinking of a big trip for 2011, we are not moving, we love it here.

It has been an interesting year, and we are not moving, working hard to stay here for at least another year, it might be longer but I dont' like to plan more than a year out, if you do that, you dont' really live in the present, which is really what life is about.

I hope everyone has a Happy New Year!!

I am so excited! I had a wonderful Christmas, and two of my friends have become engaged over Christmas YEAH!! Not to each other, what and exciting time for both couples. I talked to one of my friends, and I am on the look out for the perfect place within their price range. I am up for the challenge, especially for what I do for a living.

It is amazing how much information is on the web and then how much isn't when looking for a wedding, you really need to go see the place, a few of them I know, so when I see their pictures and web pages, I realize how easy it is to manipulate a picture.

Some were good and factual but alot weren't, and it was very cool to be at this end, not looking for me, and definitely not my competition due to being in CT. Work was so much fun today, I met with brides to go over details and tasting the food, you see the excitement and the way they interact with family, it is actually one of the really things I enjoy in my work.

You have to be very careful to catch every movement, and of course, what they actually said and not said is important too. I love family stories so for me, it is always fun to see how they make decisions and how they have certain points with each of them that they will not bend on.

I want to help my friends but not be overwhelming or my ideas. It is hard to keep my mouth shut, but I am going to learn to do it better.

Why do I always seem to be scrambling at the end right before Christmas? I have the bulk done, I still need (3) Gifts for employees, and (1) Friend, and stocking stuffers for the husband, it may not seem like a lot, except for the fact, I am working everyday until I leave to go down to CT, which is Wednesday, Dec. 23, I might take tomorrow morning off and go shopping.

I have to work tomorrow night, I have and event here, unless I can con the tavern manager ( husband) into watching the event and take the whole day off. That would be great if that can happen then I can finish up and not stress out.

It is not as if it sneaks up on me, Christmas is the same day every year, why? I have no clue!! I am not the only one either. The husband has part of his presents for his staff, but it is still missing something, and I have asked him and got no response.

Other than this little stress, looking forward to Christmas this year, going down to CT and the in-laws are coming out for the holiday from Illnois, so it will be so much fun. Will see friends while down in CT and spend quality time with family, not working YEAH!! Thanksgiving was a bit stressful with working and trying to entertain family.

Definately going to have a "white christmas' here in New England, it is soooo cold here in NH, the wind it what is making it so chilly, Sunday, at work should be fun it is the Open House/Re-opening celebration of the hotel and I am working the Craft table with the kiddies making ornaments, I love that stuff. It is definately one of the fun parts of my job.

I hear so many interns want to do my job, believe me it can be fun, dont' get me wrong but it can be very stressful having someone's wedding in your hands, it is their most important day, you may have done 1,000 times but they haven't and you have to be patient with the same stress different brides. It can sometimes get overwhelming, also be able to think on your feet, as long as the bride never knows what happened behind the scenes, and you were able to fix the issue, then it is a success.. I see these young girls and they think I want your job, without realizes everything that goes into the job. You are part sales person, part therapist and part work horse, be prepared to work harder then you ever have before and sometimes with no "thank you" but you know you have done everything you could and more you have to be satisfied with that within your self or you will drive yourself crazy..

Rant :: Last night, 12/11 I was watching, "Say Yes to the Dress" and the chick Nicole who flew in our her "daddy's" private jet was on my last nerve. I understand how hard it is to find the right dress, to me it seems easier when you have "no" budget, but to treat the sales people like sh**, blew my mind.

Diane had a 2 -3 hour appointment and when you finally loved a dress, she mentioned oh, I have more shopping to do, then said to the camera, "If Diane had approached it better" then I would be walking out the door with the dress. She felt "rushed" and "pushed", I am sorry, these sales people bend over backwards for you, and miss other appointments for YOU!! They work on commission, do you actually work? Do you know what the real world is?

Then come back 20 minutes before closing and expect them to drop everything and show you more dresses? For you to again, say, "I think they should of stayed open longer" as if, they have not worked a full day and those dresses are not light, helping people, but your "Time Schedule" seems more important, get over yourself. I thought Randy's pushing and calling your bluff was perfect at the end..

The dress was beautiful and worth whatever you paid for it, but learn a little respect for us worker bees who really do want what is best for you, but realize it is a business and we work hard and deserve your respect. Diane and Randy should be commended for putting up with your attitude, and they say New Yorkers can be rude that got nothing on Nicole.

So excited, the first snow is today. I am going to sell Christmas Trees today for the Rotary. I am excited that it snowed.

I love the first snow, the husband is of course, not so happy about it and I hear him shoveling snow. I will just smile to myself and sing my little "SNOW" song..

It has been such a busy week at work, and drama filled. It seems everyone is out to get everyone else and no one wants to take the responsibility for what they have done or not done.

Paychecks are a day late, which may not seem like alot but when you get paid every two weeks, miss a day it seems you need that money. We are lucky, we can wait the extra days, when I was single I would be freaking out. What upset me the most the fact that the few people who made this happen, both made comments that people should not live paycheck to paycheck, it is none of their business.

They have no right to judge anyone, and definitely not their place to act superior. It is so wrong of people to talk about people fiances or lack of, is that the WASP in me? Then the fact of my lack of sleep everyday up early, and working late, so tired... Tomorrow excited though "Breakfast with Santa" at the Inn and Sunday, I am selling christmas trees for Rotary, I really want it to snow on Sunday, I think it would be really christmasy.

Sunday, usually the day of fun. Husband has to work, the restaurant is implementing a new menu and he has to program the computer and then make sure staff is all up to par. I helped out in the restaurant on Friday morning, it was a lot of fun. I had forgotten how much I did enjoy working in a restaurant.

Talking to people, making sure everyone is happy. I actually always enjoyed waiting tables, believe me sometimes you don't want to listen to customers but overall I did enjoy it very much. I am missing our Sunday together, but it will be worth it because he has his birthday off on Tuesday. I have to work Tuesday day but we have the evening.

Thanksgiving is over, and soon will be starting to decorate for Christmas. It was so nice to have my family here, I was kind of a b**** stressing about if my family is having fun, and then what they will do to embarrass me or get me in trouble at work. We are not the quietest people in the world.

It was fine, I just was such a stess monster, I could not truly enjoy my family. It is overwhelming with all of them here, could not really get any quality time. They seemed to love the hotel and are making plans to come back in smaller numbers and enjoy the area. My sisters are coming in February, and my cousin and her husband too. That will be more manageable and not a holiday.

Mom is coming for the First Night celebration along with a good friend of mine, looking forward to Christmas Eve, my in-laws are coming, which makes me so happy, for my husband. I feel guilty my family does get most of the holidays and other events. He is working and will come home change and go back to work, it is a long weekend for him, work wise.

Why do I stress myself? When my sisters entertain at their houses, it seems so easy and everyone flows, I act like a crazy person... I am so not Martha Stewart, not even close, I can handle weddings for hundreds of people, and make it go so smootly, but my family comes and I act like I have no clue how to handle large groups.

I have always felt like and outsider within my family, which was a long time ago? Why do we all fall back into our roles growing up when we are all together, even though we are all married most with kids of our ownm, but put us all together, I revert back to being the youngest, am I the only one?

I am stressing about Thanksgiving, my whole family is coming, even my dad and mom and their spouses. My mom's husband wishes he and my dad went to school together, they get along famously.

We are all eating at the Inn tomorrow afternoon, and the husband is working tonight and I am missing him more than anything, he has been good for the last week and half. He has been so sick for almost 4 weeks, he lost about 25-30lbs. Which makes me happy for him, but jealous for me, but after what he went through I would never want to lose it his way.

I hope everyone has a safe and wonderful Thanksgiving.

It is only a few days until Thanksgiving, I am excited and stressing about the fact my family is coming up for the holiday. We went shopping yesterday, and bought stuff for our place, I do not want my sisters to think we still live as if we are in college.

All these moves in the many years, make it easier never to really get settled in, but we have decided to stay put if possible for a while. We both like Wolfeboro and NH, and as long as we can keep our jobs, we will be here. Right now it is cold and chilly, I think it is going to snow, for work I think we need it to snow. On the other hand I am not ready for snow.


We set up all the furniture today, cleaned the house, still need to clean the bathroom and kitchen, which since the husband has Tuesday of he can do that tomorrow. I want everything to go well this week.

Reality TV:

Cake Boss- I really enjoy Buddy and his crew, they really are a true team. Today, I watched one with a "Bridzilla" named Allison she was awful, how disrespectful to destroy the cake that he worked so hard on for you, then when in 24 hours, he made a new cake, and delivered it himself she was even more of a bitch to him upon the delivery. How does any person feel it is ok, to treat another person so awful? Especially a professional.

Real Housewives of OC: I am upset that Jeanna is leaving but the way Vicki has treated her, is so awful that Jeanna is hit by the economy hard? You act as if you are all sweet and nice but you really are awful to drop a friend of lack of funds and what the hell is going on with Tamara and Gretchen? What does Gretchen do to make money? It is not as if her Yard Sale made any money.
Tamara believe me it is hard to give up a house you worked hard for, but living simply is so much better than stressing about making your next mortgage payment, we all understand in this economy it is tough.

Real Housewives of Atlanta: NeNe and Kim make the best TV, are they for real?

I do want to see "Lawman" just because it is Steven Seagal what the hell is that?

Say Yes to the Dress: What was with the girl who tried on over 100 dresses and wanted to try 40 in one day is she just that undecisive? Sometimes brides have no idea that too many choices is not always for the best, why do you not trust your own opinion? That you have to give all these choices?

Well, my poor husband has been sick for 3 weeks, not H1N1, something else and no one at the hospital could help us, so went to a doctor on Wednesday, still waiting for results. HELLO!! He has not eaten since Wednesday and can't even keep fluids down, do they even care? Yesterday and Today, seem to be good days, only time will tell if he has finally taken a good turn. I have been stressing and so worried about him.

We have no insurance, due to the cost, then this morning I see the House has passed the bill 220-215, and now it is on to the Senate, I am not sure that is the best either that the government is taking over health care. When I was in London in 1987, my boyfriend (Todd) got hit by a car and we had to go to the hospital, it was scary and uninformative, it really was like all those WWII black/white movies I had seen about London. They have national health care, and I was not impressed, so I guess we have to wait and see what happens.

Also, when are we going to be able to see the bill passes, all of it so we can see what the crooked politicians are really trying to pass, are they doing this so quickly due to the fact that on Tuesday, America spoke and voted GOP, which even though I am a Republican I am not naive enough to think it was for the GOP as it was against Obama's presidency up to this point.

Then again are these new politicians going to really make a difference? Part of me thinks the two party system needs to go away and we really need people in there who are the "people" not the boys/girls groomed since they were little to be a politician like Dodd, Kennedy etc. you know what I mean.

I so worry about this country, my gosh Fort Hood, Orlando in the last two days, just people having no respect for life, its heart breaking to think they have no problem hurting people just working and going on with their lives, because you don't like something or you took it way to personally. What is this country coming to? We have enough enemies against the USA then to start killing from within our borders.

I am at work on this beautiful but cold autumn day in NH. It is coming up on Halloween, then it will come fast to Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years. This time of year always makes me think about the past, and no matter what has happened, I don't see the bad.

I miss Thomas more and more each day, it has been (2) years, and I still pick up the phone and want to talk to him. Then I think about Seth and Wayne, and how tragic all (3) Deaths were, Wayne's makes me the saddest because it could of been avoided, and his widow (kate) at home waiting for her husband. Now, that my husband works nights, it stresses me out until he gets home.

I love the fall, the changing of the leaves, and reminds me of when I was in school and going shopping at Marcus's in New London for my Levi's, going to the Mall to get a new coat, and then of course, the bookstores for supplies and more books. This is the first year since we have gotten married that we are NOT moving, we are both enjoying New Hampshire and talking about maybe in another 2 years buying up here. We have found our Starrs Hollow, so now the question is will it last?

In this economy you never know, we are both grateful for working and paying our bills, but we are not dumb and know in order to keep it flowing we have to do whatever it takes for the company to keep our positions.

I am a huge Fox News fan, and watched this young man on the news, and was thinking what the h*** is the school district thinking, isn't this the type of young man you want to represent your town and country. Here is the article.

"The upstate New York school superintendent who suspended an Eagle Scout for 20 days for keeping a 2-inch utility knife locked in his car is unwilling to speak to the teen's family or bend in his ruling.

Lansingburgh Central School District Superintendent George J. Goodwin, 55, said in a written statement that his district "has an established policy of zero tolerance with respect to the possession of weapons of any kind on school property or in school buildings."

But nowhere in the school district's rule book, which is published online, is there any mention of a "zero tolerance" policy, leading some to question whether Goodwin, in fact, was compelled to suspend the youth.

Seventeen-year-old Matthew Whalen, a senior at Lansingburgh High School in Troy, N.Y., says he got in trouble over a survival kit he keeps in his car that includes a sleeping bag, water, a ready-to-eat meal and the small pocketknife, which was given to him by his grandfather, a police chief in a nearby town."

My heart goes out to Matthew Whalen, I saw him on the intereview he looked uncomfortable and visibly upset that his dream career might be dashed by this incident. Here is a respectful young man who wasn't causing any problem just being prepared isn't that what the military trains?

As I sit here on a Saturday night, I worry about the husband and work ok. The husband has hurt himself, he sprained his ankle and is now on crutches. I do not think he has ever been on crutches before, and it was quite amusing watching him try to maneuver. It also, made me feel superior for once in our whole relationship, I knew something he didn't, it may be childish but still made me feel good.

I have sprained both my ankles at least 3x each, I have broken my toe twice, and then of course there is my knee. So, I have been on crutches many times. The last time was at least 10 years ago and they were made of wood, or a wood like substance and they were heavy. Now, they are made of aluminum, and very light.

You realize as you get older that it is not so easy or fast to recover from any injury. We do not have health insurance but since he hurt himself at work, they are paying for it.

Its fall, and it is beautiful up here in NH. We went to "Chowderfest" yesterday,
I do know about the fact it was for charity, but we still lost the competition. I am not all that competitive, but we didn't even place. Then we came home and had a nice early evening together.

The husband had to go into work, due to someone not coming into work, My heart says it will be only for a little while, but my head knows that once you step into the restaurant you are pretty stuck for hours. I am in no way mad at him, just disappointed due to the fact even though we work together, we never see each other.

I miss my husband, he does seem very happy about working at the restaurant, he was born to be in the industry that he walked away from 4 years ago. I have to just suck it up.

Well, its Friday night, and a bit chilly here in NH, so I am under a blanket watching, "CSI:Miami" and hoping the phone does not ring for the party at the hotel. I hate that I have to stress everytime I leave the office, and wonder if my staff can actually handle it without me.

My husband is still working and I miss spending time with him, we are having such a hard time connecting with him back working nights. So, when w
e have our 2 days off we try to catch up. I know it sounds lame since we work in the same building but it is different when you are at work, and when you are home.

This weekend we are actually working an event together on Sunday, luckily its a day event, and we will still have the evening and the whole next day together. Up here in NH it certainly does feel as if Winter is coming, the colors are so vibrant for the autumn, my favorite time of year, but it is getting really chilly in the evenings, so it does feel as if winter is coming just no snow right now.

I am very much looking forward to winter, why?