This morning coming to work, I heard about a new Reality Show. It is from Mark Burnett (survivor) and Myspace, an it is to find a Independent Presidental Candidate, an if you win you get $1 million not for you, but to go toward your campaign.

Now, does that mean anyone can try out for this show? Do you have to have some sort of education or nope just as long as you are 35 years of age you can run for President of the United States? What happens if you actually won? I realize he is trying to make a point, that more people vote for the American Idol then they do for the President of the United States, so why not make it a reality show?

Now $1 million for a campaign of this size is not all that much, Hillary Clinton has raised $19 million for her campaign and Sen. Barack Obama raised $24.8 million for primaries in the same period, so how far would $1 Million go for an unknown? Is it really to find the perfect candidate or just to screw around with democracy?

What has the world come to if we are going to try to have someone run from a Reality show? It is bad enough people are famous because of being on a reality series, if you ask anyone in the age group of 15- 29 years old who the Vice President is or the Speaker of the House, do you think they could tell you? Most Likely "NO" but they can tell you New York is or Pumpkin do you?
(HINT VH1 reality show).

Could they tell you why Alberto R. Gonzales (attorney general) has been at the Capital Hill hearings? Nope, but can most likely tell you why Lauren and Holly's friendship broke up on the show "The Hills" or who won American Idol, or who got kicked off of Dancing with the Stars. Believe me, I watch Reality shows too, but feel some things should be off limits or if they are really going to try to find a candidate to run for President, find someone worthy of the position an give them enough money to actually run a real campaign. Just a thought what is yours?

Ok, this morning I am going to talk alittle about a store called "Levenger" is a store and an on-line where you buy tools for reading, writing and productivity. I can tell you during my honeymoon in March 2005 in Chicago, my husband ( nerd) took me to the store 3x, I did get a wonderful purse, he loves this store. He has a blog about getting organized in your life which is at www.hdbizblog.com/blog. If you need to get your life organized check it out and the other links that are on his blog.

"Levenger" is one of those stores that has everything displayed that you want to buy everything thinking it will get you organized, I have been to Franklin Covey stores, which I do have their planner but it is not as great as "Levenger" and the quality is up there, the prices too, but definately worth it. We have been to the one in Boston, MA and Chicago an both places the salespeople were very helpful an knowledgeable, do you remember a few days ago I asked what your ideal job would be? I believe in my heart if my husband could get a job with "Levenger" selling on line products for them or marketing he would be so excited. Combining his two favorite passions, organization products an the internet. Do you see why I call him a nerd?

I admit I do love my day timers an portfolios, I have my eye on one from Levenger but will need to save up for it, but believe it will be worth it. What do you use to organize your life?

Bad day.. I got off track two weeks ago from my work out. Up until then for the last 3 months I have gotten up at 6am and worked out, but the last two weeks work has been crazy and the groups I had were "HIGH MAINTENCE", which means I had to be here the whole time, from 5am - 10pm at night. I started back working out on Monday an feel better, but it is hard once you cut down, I never stopped just instead of 5 days it was more like 2 or 3 days an instead of 45 minutes cardio with strength training it was 20 minutes cardio and 10 minutes ab work.

Why am I telling you? Because it is frustrating, I am still holding at a loss of 14 lbs, but I want it to be more, I have changed my eating habits, watch what I eat etc.. is it because I am 43 years old an should of done this sooner? I watch " Work Out" on Bravo and think wouldn't it be great to be a Trainer and help people better their lives inside an out? I of course, am in no way in shape enough to become a trainer but it is one of my dreams. I have asked alot of people in the past week, if you had your choice of jobs and you did not have to make money what would be your dream job?

My stock answer for years would of been, own a book/coffee store small in a great community. Like Key West, but lately if you asked me it would be to either be a trainer but not in a gym, go to peoples houses and help them or sit at the dock in Key West and sell people space on the boats. I want more time with my family, so I would want a position that does not take me away from that, an working in the Hotel business you are at the mercy of your clients. They do not care if you have had 2 or 3 programs that week and theirs is the last one, it is their only program an you need to be at your best for them as the others. In this business reputation is everything, when I was doing weddings it was more stressful, because if a meeting does not go perfect no one is going to really get so upset, but a wedding oh yeah!! IT is their one day, so I bring my dedication that I did for the brides to my corporate clients, they do appreciate it, but to me very tiring.

If you are thinking of working out, watch " Work Out" on Bravo, Jackie who owns SkyBar and now SkyLab is a force to reckon with, she really seems to care about her staff and clients. I think she would be tough lady to work for, but it would be worth it because you would learn so much from her. The Trainers are in themselves so different an I love watching them interact, they have lost one of their own a Doug Baldswell, who was the oldest at 43 years old, in incredible shape and seemed to be the nicest guy on the planet. I think my favorite trainer to watch is Brian Peeler an Jessie interact, because Jessie is a big drama Queen, an Brian likes to push his buttons.

Besides that it motivates me to get off my butt an work out again, instead of sitting watching TV. I get my motivation from that show and infommericals on tapes to work out, I work out to
"Turbo Jam", but am looking at the Hip Hop Abs and Power 90 Abs, we will see which I will pick, I already own the Firm tapes and Tae Bo, which are still in the boxes and never opened. It is not all about looking good, it is being healthy the older we get the harder it is, I like feeling good when I get up and not like a slug. My bouts with depression, seem to be under control without drugs when I work out and talk it through with my husband. How do you stay healthy?

Bombadee's Garden My friend Jenny's blog, please go and read her last post and please send her your support for the in justice that has been done to her. Especially since it was something she was so passionate about and loved doing. When I saw her last September she was so excited to be starting on the Rockford Rages Roller Derby, an to treat her so bad because, gosh she asked questions...

Who saw 'Gilmore Girls' Last night, YEAH!! It was great to see Loreli an Luke fighting again, because if the passion is there for fighting, it has not died yet.. Paris one of my favorite characters had a lot more air time, an even though I do love Rory it was about time it did not work out for her compeletly, even though we kind of knew that when Paris got accepted into all her school choices. Personally, I think Paris should be a Lawyer and then send her into politics, I would love a spin off of Paris and Doyle. Lisa Weil brings such a great energy to the character, she steals every scene she is in, I have finally gotten the first season on DVD ( used for 1/2 the price), an enjoyed watching the early season between Paris and Rory.

I know we have not seen the last of Christopher, and will be interesting to see if Rachel comes back again for Luke. I am so happy that my show has been saved for an 8th season!!! My addiction.

Reality TV: Did anyone see the Reunion of "I love NY"? I did even though I only caught glimpses of the show, and it was great to see Tango dump her on national Television because she talked crap behind his mom's back. It proves he is a good man, NY would of made his life h*** that girl is all about drama and I love that Pumpkin is now with Boston a cast off of NY's, NY did not like that one bit you go Pumpkin keep annoying her!!

Heather Mills kicked off of Dancing with the Stars not much of a shock there was there? Does anyone know if Rock Star is coming back this summer for a third season? My husband an I loved the last two seasons especially Dilahana who came in second place this past season. Due to rumor has it the group "Supernova Rock Star' has broken up, she is doing much better than Lucas who won the show..

Today, I was talking to the new girl in my office, who is a Muslim. The reason I am telling you she is a muslim because she was explaining her culture, her husband and her were an arranged marriage. They talked on the phone for a few weeks and were married within the month. They have been married now 4 years and have 2 children. I asked her if she loved him, she said, how can you love someone after only a month? In there culture you find someone who is a good provider, good father an the love will come. I again asked did the love come? "NO".

She then said, I am not sure what love is? Explain to me what you mean by love? So, I was pondering the question, what is love? I thought I was in love 10 years ago, with a man who treated me like crap, looking back on the situation, I know I loved him, but he did not love or respect me and I do believe you need both to have a lasting relationship. My husband jokes that I don't respect him, but I do more than he may ever realize. In simplier terms for me love is, when he walks in the room, my heart skips a beat an a smile comes on my face because he is there. Even if it has been 10 hours, or 10 minutes. We have an incredible relationship, more than I ever dreamed or thought I deserved. Do not get me wrong believe me we have our fights, but we always talk through any problems.

So, I have to wonder could I live without "love"? Could I have married someone for the security, because he is a good father, provider an companion except there is no love there? I don't think so, I was 40 years old when I got married, I had waited so long for the right person and had no intention of settling just to be married. I know my family never thought I would get married. There is nothing wrong with settling if that is something you could live with, are you settling or waiting for the fireworks?

My friend explained that, her husband during their first year, hurt her so bad that after their daughter was born she kicked him out, but her parents intervened and told her to give him another chance, the problem is the damage is done. She may forget what he did but she will never be able to forgive. As a Christian, I realize we are suppose to forgive and forget, but I am the same way, once someone hurts me, I can never forgive them. I may forget an move on, but my heart will be blocked forever from that person. I do understand where she is coming from, but again I ask how long can you hold on to something that is not there? Can you stay in a relationship without respect and love? I am putting this out to the world what can you live with and without to be comfortable?

I find it offensive that the Media keeps showing that tape the sicko made in the 2hours before hand killed more people.

Please let us know the victims not him, the families need comfort right now, not constant reminder of the idiot who ripped their lives apart on Monday. In Connecticut on the same day and time this was happening, Old Saybrook was preparing for something like this at their high school. They want to be prepared because lets be honest we are not.

You like to think when you send your child to school for the next 6- 8 hours they are safe and sound. You can go about your day, unless the school calls and says "sally is sick, come get her". Never would you think someone would go into a classroom an open fire, let us not forget PA, and the Amish school house, that wasn't even a student.

Gun control is not the answer, VT is in a GUN-FREE Zone, which means the people with guns know where it is safe to open fire and not get shot at, do GUN-FREE Zones work? Do more gun control laws work? NO!!! These are isolated incidents and the NRA is not to blame, no one is to blame but the Sicko's who did the killings. I know in this time of terrible tragedy, we as humans are trying to figure out WHY? What could we have done to prevent it?

The sad reality is, nothing really. If someone is out to destroy innocent people, themselves they will find a way no matter what the cost. This is not like Terroism this is individuals not a whole movement. My heart goes out to everyone at VT who was affected by these events, there is no where to put the blame except on (1) PERSON. As, a little thought where are his parents?

I am a christian and do not mind other people's beliefs, but when due to the fact you are a star, you can recruit people for your own little "CULT", Scientology is a made up religion from L. Ron Hubbard. That is fine for anyone who believes in the same beliefs but do not go out an recruit as if you are the choosen people.

I love John Travolta and Kelly Preston, they are Scientologist but do not make everyone around them become one too, I respect their beliefs, it is when it is being shoved down our throats I can not stand.

I feel sorry for Katie Holmes who was brought up a Catholic, are you now a Scientologist? Get out while you can...

FROM FOX NEWS
Tom Cruise comes to New York on Thursday night, hoping to raise hundreds of thousands of dollars for Scientology. He’s doing it under the guise of a detox program for members of the New York Fire Department who participated in the 9/11 clean-up.
There’s only problem: No one from the hierarchy of the FDNY endorses this program. The people I’ve talked to are furious with Cruise, and want the rank and file of firemen in New York to stay away from it.
Indeed, what I’m hearing are stories of firemen who accepted free treatment, only to be swallowed into Scientology. And while tonight’s event is billed as a “fundraiser,” I’m also told that firemen and their families aren’t paying for their own tickets.

The detox program is nothing new, either, say critics of Scientology. It’s just the group’s program called Purification Rundown. The course has been around a long time and has no scientific or medicinal value that can be proven by any physicians other than Scientologists.
Meantime, all eyes will be on New York City Councilman Hiram Monserrate of Queens, who has suddenly become Scientology’s new cheerleader. Monserrate drafted an official proclamation to have Thursday recognized by the city council as L. Ron Hubbard Day in honor of the late science-fiction writer who invented Scientology

I am so excited, we have won...Gilmore Girls will be back for an 8th season. For everyone who went on Save our Show websight and voted, YEAH!! I just heard it on E! Television but of course, saw it first on www.gilmoregirls.org which gives me all my insight and comments.

I love Gilmore Girls... Did you see last nights show: The Hay Maze, how strange, an cool at the same time. I believe Loreli and Luke had a moment, an what is going on with Rory and Logan, are they growing apart because Rory is growing up an he is in a funk about his loss?

Today, is such a sad day, at the end of yesterday the death toll at Virginia Tech was 22 including the shooter, this morning we find out it was 33 including in the shooter. Why was this boy so angry?

We know now there was a note of some sort, an that he was on anti-depression medication, the media keeps trying to figure out WHY?? We may never know why, it is such a tragedy, an I realize students at VT are upset at the school handling of the situation. I have no idea how the school reacted, or if it was in a timely manner, but I do wish people would get the whole story before lashing out as if the school is to blame.

No one is to blame except "Cho Seung-Hui", which is the only time I will mention his name from now on he will be " THE ONE TO BLAME", these 33 people were going to class or getting up in their dorm to start their school day, what right did you have to come in an do this?
My heart goes out to every person affected by this terrible tragedy, especially the parents who sent their kids off to get an education, where even today we think school is a safe place. I have only seen a few names of the victims: Ryan Clark, Mary Karen Read, Christopher Bishop, Emily Jane Hilscher. I am praying for their families.

Professor Liviu Librescu you were an amazing man in life, I did not know you but from what I hear you survived the Holocaust which I am sure you thought would be the worst thing in your life than to be gunned down in your classroom, you are a hero who was protecting his students. Your family must be so proud of you, even in their time of loss, they will always remember what you did in your final time in this world.

THE ONE TO BLAME,,, is burning in H*** an there is no place else he should be, if he lived it would of been even worse for the victims families, that may sound mean an awful but I am angry at this person. What gave him the right to make a decision to alter so many lives?

What is going on the world? I have just been watching the news from Virginia Tech, where today 21 people were gunned down, 1 in their dorm an the others in a classroom. The shooter brings it up to 22 people dead, they are not sure if he took his own life or if the police shot him, my question is why? Which we may never know, my other question is where was he for the two hours between the first shooting at 7:15am an the next shootings around 9am?

Is he a student or someone angry at the college? I did a bit of research this morning due to the comparisons to 1966, I admit I was 2 years old and do not remember it, I have heard people make comments about' Going up to the Watchtower" in movies and on TV but really did not understand until today.

Charles Whitman August 1, 1966 killed 15 people that day wounding 31, after his autopsy they said he had Cancer did that cause his craziness? Why kill innocent people?

Columbine we all remember April 20, 1999 don't we? May 4, 1970 Kent State, a protest gone awry, Dawson College in Ohio?

How do people get these guns to shoot innocent people for their own sick pleasure? My heart goes out to the family and friends of todays terrible tragedy at Virginia Tech, was there any way to avoid this?

Last night, I watched "Driven" on Fox Network, I loved it. It was a cross between Cannonball run and Speed. Why are these people doing it? Why due to coming in Last at the first stop, now you have to kill another contestant in a race that has no rules? I became hooked in the first 15 minutes and now can not wait to see it tonight.

Some of the cast, is great to see back on the screen, Nathan Fillon who I love, he was great as the crazy priest in the last season of " Buffy the Vampire Slayer", but I remember him on "One Life to Live", also Brian Bloom another soap opera vetern, where has he been? After he left "Another World" I saw him in a Lifetime movie with Christian Slater and then nothing, those incredible blue eyes, where has he been hiding?

Of course, my favorite character so far, is Winston how cute is that actor? He is definately someone to watch, I do not think he is what he seems... Also the mom in the minivan with a plastic doll what is her story? I am thinking abused mom, who took the challenge to get away from her controlling husband, if you have not seen it watch... I still have not quite figured out who the little girl was who's parents were killed 28 years ago, unless it is the chick who hitched at ride with Nathan's character. If it lasts it might be an interesting season, I love that it is not a reality television show...

I hope everyone had a nice Easter Weekend, due to my husband working on Saturday's our only day off together is Sundays and we are both very selfish about our time together. We usually do not make any plans except with each other on Sunday's due to our limited time off together.

Yesterday, we got up early went grocery shopping, believe it or not I do love to do this chore as long as it is together, we enjoy going up an down the aisles an figuring out what we can spend an our meals for the week. Due to he is the cook, I just give suggestions and he figures out how to make the item.

We took a long nap in the afternoon, then he made Lamb for our Easter dinner, it was so much fun, we drank a little wine ( today, my stomach is a bit quesy from too much wine). Watched stupid videos all day, there was nothing on regular TV an this way we can shut it off and still go back to the story line if we feel like it. I did talk to my family, Maine I guess had gotten 14 inches of snow on Saturday, so even though it was chilly down here in North Carolina it is better without snow.

Today, I was reading my paper on line you should know by now I mean the New London Day, and was so upset, a person I know crashed into a cop car due to DWI, the worst thing was she had her 9 year old daughter in the car at the time, are you crazy and it was 10am? I feel bad that she crashed luckily everyone is ok, but what could possible be that terrible that you would be drunk at 10am? My heart goes out to her an her family. It makes you thankful for what we all have instead of dwelling on what we don't have. It is hard for me to grasp that sometimes when I am whining about not having enough money to buy a new outfit, when I look at other people's problems mine are nothing compared to them. I do have to tell myself not to be so selfish.

I read the following article this morning and after spending most of my life except for the last two years in North Carolina or the few years in Hartford, CT, it is now proven that Southeastern CT is not a healthy place to live.

Especially, during the cold long winter where do you go just to get out? A bar, or a coffee house, which serves legal stimulates and people smoke when they drink alcohol and coffee, in CT unfortunately, you can not smoke inside the building so you stand outside the door, so whenever anyone comes inside 9 times out of 10 they have to walk through smoke. I have no idea what the answer is, but since I now work out everyday and with the weather being so nice, it is wonderful to get up and feel better about myself. What should New London County do to make people healthier? I did see somewhere that a town in the Midwest the Mayor made it everyone's cause to get health and went out of their way to get everyone involved, do you think it might work in all the communities in Southeastern CT, maybe get them out of the Casino's or better yet get the Casino's to offer a $$ price to a Team/Individual to lose weight and get in better health. They have all that money, and they contribute to people being in trouble financially, before the casinos how many little old ladies did you hear about embezelling money from their town to gamble?

I do not think there is only a few things contributing to bad health, alot of it comes down to mental health, if you are depressed how do you get motivated to work on yourself? Believe me the winters are the worst , I also noticed it talks about sucides, most likely during the winter because you wait for May to come to start going outside and enjoying life again, you hibernate from November- May, what a way to live.

This article was in the New London Day today:

"We smoke too much, we drink too much, we are too fat and we have a strong propensity to sit on our duffs, according to the first-ever “community health assessment” of New London County.
Highlights (or lowlights) of the survey were released Thursday at a conference at Mohegan Sun attended by several hundred health-care professionals.
The conference, conducted by the Center for Health Policy, Planning and Research of the University of New England at the behest of the Community Health Access Management Program, was meant to be a starting point for the region to address its health-care needs.
“Without understanding the lay of the land, we can't move forward,” said Ronald D. Deprez, executive director of the center, who oversaw the study. “Unfortunately, in this country we don't do enough health planning.”
Susan B. Peters, CEO for outpatient services at United Community & Family Services, Inc., who chaired the conference, agreed.
“Today is just the tip of the iceberg and the beginning of the solution,” Peters said. “Today marks the beginning of our journey. To use the MapQuest analogy, this study is the starting address of our trip.”
The survey looked at risk factors to the health of the people of New London County, their access to health care, their overall wellness and the incidence of heart disease, diabetes, cancer, mental illness and several infectious diseases.
Among other things, the researchers found:
• Nearly a quarter of New London County residents smoke, compared to 16.5 percent of residents statewide.
• Twenty-four percent of the region's residents are obese, compared to just over 20 percent statewide.
• Almost 6 percent of residents, compared to 3.5 percent statewide, engage in chronic heavy drinking.
• Just under 22 percent have a sedentary lifestyle, about the same as the statewide percentage.
All of these behaviors increase the risk of residents' succumbing to chronic diseases.
“Policies and programs to improve nutrition and exercise, and prevent or treat tobacco use, are essential to achieving better health and reducing health costs in these communities,” Deprez said.
The survey also looked at different groupings of communities within New London County, which, not surprisingly, revealed different health issues in the cities of Norwich and New London from those found in their wealthier suburbs and such rural communities as Bozrah.
For example:
• Groton has the highest rate — 6.8 percent — of chronic heavy drinking.
• Nearly 30 percent of Norwich residents smoke, and that city has the highest rate — 5.8 percent — of heart disease.
• More than 28 percent of residents in the so-called mill towns of Griswold, Lisbon, Montville, Sprague and Stonington are obese, and residents of those towns have the highest percentage — 30.4 percent — of diagnoses of high cholesterol.
• New London and Norwich adults have the highest rates of asthma: 11 percent and 16.2 percent, respectively.
• The prevalence of adult diabetes in New London County is 33 percent higher than its prevalence statewide.
• The incidence of cancer in New London County is similar to the state rate, but Lyme and Old Lyme have a 50 percent higher incidence rate.
• The county suicide rate is higher than the state — 12.8 per 100,000 compared to 7.8 per 100,000 — and is particularly high — 18.1 per 100,000 — in the rural towns of Bozrah, Colchester, East Lyme, Franklin, Lebanon, Ledyard, North Stonington, Preston, Salem and Voluntown.
The report also examined access to health care and found that 11 percent of county residents were uninsured, that just over 21 percent had no regular source of medical care, and that 12 percent had not had a checkup in the past two years.
Deprez urged those attending the conference to use the study and coordinate their efforts to meet the health needs of the region.
“The work really starts after you leave. And so it's nice to see you all here today, but hopefully you'll take this forward,” he said. “Unless you take this forward, you've wasted your time, and you've wasted your money on us.”
Among other things Deprez suggested the area focus on were better employee-health programs and better safety-net services. But, he said, “You have to build a primary-care system that fosters and promotes patient self-management. We have to educate patients about their medications, educate patients about what is expected of them and how to report problems that they have.”
The survey made use of data from the state Department of Public Health, the Connecticut Hospital Association, the U.S. Census and a random-sample telephone survey of 1,300 county residents.
The survey results released Thursday can be viewed online at www.ledgelighthd.org.
The full report will be released May 11.
k.robinson@theday.com

Today, as I was reading the New London Day on line there was an article with a picture of a man stocking a brook full of fish for opening day of fishing April 21. It just brought back such memories of my boyfriend Seth who had passed away at the end of last year, he loved to fish more than anything. He an his guy friends every year would go camping during opening day and fish all day and party at night. The year we were together, he invited me, because some of the other guys were bringing their girlfriends/wives, so i decided how tough could it be?

We all know I am not a camper, to me camping is staying at Limited Hotel. Boy, was I wrong, it was April in Connecticut, cold, rainy and they expect you to sleep on the ground. Our tent smelled like wet socks all weekend, I had 3 layers of cloths on, he wanted to fool around, are you kidding me? I read about 4 books, didn't go fishing and pretty much complained the whole weekend poor Seth. He was a Saint, to make me feel better he took me out to lunch we had to drive 45 minutes to find a diner in Jewett City just to make me happy. Even though it is not a great memory, I still smile thinking about Seth. He loved being outdoors, fishing being with his friends and he really wanted to bond with me, that way we can do this together. We were together another 18months, I never went camping again, he went with just the guys the following year, I believe that was more fun for him.

My husband wants to go camping and I keep telling him, it won't be pretty, and I can get really ugly without walls, a bed and my morning coffee NOT over a fire. I can tell you before my infamous camping trip with SEth the last camping trip was when I was "13" and my mother sent me off with my Aunt and Uncle an cousins for the month of August, we drove to Maine and then took a ferry over to Canada, camping in Canada, the first night my Uncle put the tent over a creek so the next morning we woke up in water, then the next day as we are driving 100 miles, I see the sleeping bags and tent come off the top of the car, and when I tried to tell them, they told me to keep quiet it is quiet time and no speaking. OK, so about another 50 miles they were like ok, what was so important? Oh, nothing but about 50 miles ago we lost our sleeping bags and tent off the top of the car, it went on from there, can you understand why I hate Camping?

I know Seth is looking down wishing he could have 1 more "Opening Day of Fishing" with his friends and I will think of him on April 21.

Yesterday, I was b*** because I have been working out and nothing seems to help me lose the weight, this morning after dragging my sorry butt out of bed, did my 20 minutes work out and 10 minutes of standing AB's ( TURBO JAM STYLE) an then took a shower and decided to weigh myself, I am down another 4lbs, with a total of 14lbs, over 15 weeks. I am so excited, that is all I needed to feel motivated again.

I just wanted a little proof that is it is working, even though I am giving up an extra hour of sleep, as long as it is worth it, then YEAH!! I will most likely post later today, but thought I would share this after all my whining from yesterday.

Week whatever, I think week 15 of my diet/exercise plan. I am so very frustrated, I have lost only 11lbs, my husband has lost 14lbs and he has not even exercised in almost a week and a half. What is going on? I have read the books, some say, don't drink anything cold when you eat it should be something "hot", or you only need # of Calories, or take this pill and exercise and it will work. PLEASE HELP ME !! I have for the past two weeks done it when you are to eat 5 or 6 small meals a day, because if you go all day without eating ( which I have tried), your body will store all the food when you actually eat. It is hard for me to eat that many meals not because of lack of time, it is just something I do not consciously think about.

I do not want to be unhealthy, and want to do this the correct way, for my health and to make sure the weight stays off, not comes back even more so than when I started this exercise program. It is very frustrating to myself and yes, my class reunion is in 3 months and I want to look the best I can look, do you remember when you are in your early 20's and you could party all night, get up go to work and not gain an once? Now, I look at a cookie it is on my hips in no time at all. Believe me, I do not miss my 20's but I would not mind have that metabolism back, or the good skin.

I went dress shopping this week, I hate store mirrors or better yet, I hate seeing myself in them. No, I did not buy anything but shoes for work, I am so not buying a new bathing suit this year, unless I lose alot more weight. Why is it when women age we feel everyone is judging us, but when men age they are better for it? Just something to throw out in the universe, dont worry I will be up again tomorrow at 6am doing my Turbo Jam, at least my arms are getting toned if nothing else.