This weekend at work was busy.. Saturday went well for the wedding, then on Sunday everything that could go wrong did go wrong. The two parties on the Boat, not so well since the boat decided it did not want to work, and then the mother of the bride from Saturday wanted to argue with me, even after I gave in and gave her what she wanted. I snapped, which is so unprofessional, I let the GM and my DOS know I am sure a nasty letter or email is coming their way about me snapping at them.

Part of me doesn't care, but the fact I always try to be a professional, I am mad at myself beyond belief. The husband is on his 8 day straight and will not have a day off until July 5, because the bigwigs have decided to come in tomorrow, so I have to go to a rotary dinner alone and pay for two, I hate going alone to these things. We have had no time this week, we went away last weekend for a night, but it seems all we do is pass each other at work.

I miss hanging out with him, we have so much fun together, and right now it is work, sleep, work, sleep and I go to bed around 11pm he gets home around midnight, unwinds come to bed around 1am, and then I am up at 7am and he is still in bed. We did have this morning together but due to how hectic the weekend was, our ADD was in the fore front and neither one of us could focus. We did errands around the house, but it is a mess, and then he pretty much had to go to work.

I did help him plan out his Colorado trip in September, for his next SOBCON conference, he didn't get to go in May to Chicago, so he is so excited to go to Colorado, he wants me to go but I have a huge wedding that weekend and can not go, I was thinking of flying out on Sunday but instead he is flying back due to the cost of airline tickets, I would rather save the money for our Key West trip in Nov/Dec.

I want to own my own business, I hate working for someone else. It is so much harder than I thought it would be to start, one of my employees who is 19 has started his own business, how jealous am I? No matter what happens, he will be a success he is my hardest working employees.

I am sitting at home, I went to work this morning at 530am, and I came home at 10 of 5pm.Boss had to meet her bus tour, and I just didn't want anything to do with it or the dinner. She drives me crazy lately. She has been in quite the mood.

She is taking off on Monday, because she has to work on Sunday, join the crowd, you will leave early on Friday and then will not be in on Saturday so what the f***, it is not as if you work all that hard. Yeah, I am being petty, she keeps calling me her assistant, as if, I am no ones assistant, I am a professional and she should treat me like one.

The husband will be working on my day off Monday which sucks, and then on Tues. night we have to go to a dinner, so no time just us, we had a wonderful two days this week, but they are too few and in between. We are both working July 4 because some people dont like to work on July 4th, which is fine.. I will be bumbed if my family comes up, but I am taking Monday/Tuesday, so we are going to enjoy the Lake summer is here, and I don't want to let it pass us by. We have been working so hard, and we need our 2 days off together, and we do not have to go away just have quality time. I miss him when I am home and he is working, it stinks big time.

I am waiting for today to end, I was working all day for events that were on the Boat, but I knew what was happening the whole time. Ton ight is a wedding, and the couple was not all that nice this week, so it is upsetting.

I just want to get to 10pm without a distress call, now it is a wait and see game. I have already had a few glasses of wine, so not much I can do, but the husband is at work, and can handle anything that happens.

I admit I was MOD at the hotel all day, and really did not want to handle any complimants, I would have if it came down to it, but I wanted to come home. I went to work at 815am and the husband came in at 6pm, I left work at 7pm. So another week without really seeing him, tomorrow I will go in the morning for 2 hours, to make sure the billing is all set for weekend.

Then we are going to the Berkshires for the night at another of our hotels. I just want to get out of town, work may call but we can't run down to help them. We live right up the street so it is easy for them to call us and we come running. I would love to hang out on the Lake but it is most likely they will call no matter what.

Next week is another 8 hour day..

Its the Floodtide Restaurant at the Inn at Mystic. I worked here for so many years, and it was fun, exciting, tiring, stressful but for me it was home. I became friends with the people there, and we bonded, and built friendships and more. I met a man there within the first few days that I started, and it ended up in a 5 year whirlwind relationship. It did end because of his cheating, but it had to end for us both to go on and see where life would take us. I met my (2) best friends there, Thomas who I love beyond belief, we lived together for a few years, had some wonderful "floodtide" parties, and when you are in the restaurant business, you have no idea how close you become. My other was Claudette, who even to this day, we are very close. When my relationship fell apart we became friends and started traveling together it was incredible. We went to Hawaii, Antigua, Miami, Key West, Aruba it was so much fun traveling, now that I am married I miss how close we were, but we still get together alot. When I miscarried in Jan. 2006 she flew to NC to spend time with me and make sure I was ok, that is a true friend..

Lately, on facebook people from my Floodtide days have come out and commented on each others account, it is so much fun... I think if you are or have been in the business, should read "Waiters Rant" so many times it is incredible accurate for us who have been or still in the business.

I miss the fun we had at the "Flood Tide" but when I look back at it, I smile even as I write this, I remember how hard we would work on a Saturday night, and then our parties, remember sitting down after working 12 hours on Thanksgiving then having dinner, all together it was fun.

It has been quite the wet weekend up here in NH. I have either been hot, or cold no real comfort. Right now I feel as if everything is wet. We have both been working crazy hours, so even though we live and work together, I have barely seen my husband in about three weeks. Even today, he is going into the restaurant around 3pm to close. Last night, I worked 8am to 9pm and he worked 2pm-130am, long days! We knew it was going to be crazy for the summer after all it is tourist season.

The biggest problem is the gossip and backstabbing at work, I have been in the business along time, but have never seen so much of the backstabbing, or underhanded play to purposely hurt other people. I can't stand it, it is like being in high school all over again, except now we know it is manipulative and hurtful. In high school your hormones are raging and you are thinking with your heart not your head..

I have decided since he is working and nothing on tv, to have a "Gilmore Girls" marathon. I am going to go down to meet him for dinner, so at least we have a little time together. We do have tomorrow off together, most likely doing our errands and cleaning the house which I hate doing on our 1 day off together.

Last weekend, even out of work, our phones were ringing off the hook for work, YUKO! I am hoping no one calls for the next two days, I already went in this morning for 2 hours to make sure the wedding went fine after I left last night. Yes, I am venting about work, but only my perception right or wrong.