I am at work on this beautiful but cold autumn day in NH. It is coming up on Halloween, then it will come fast to Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years. This time of year always makes me think about the past, and no matter what has happened, I don't see the bad.

I miss Thomas more and more each day, it has been (2) years, and I still pick up the phone and want to talk to him. Then I think about Seth and Wayne, and how tragic all (3) Deaths were, Wayne's makes me the saddest because it could of been avoided, and his widow (kate) at home waiting for her husband. Now, that my husband works nights, it stresses me out until he gets home.

I love the fall, the changing of the leaves, and reminds me of when I was in school and going shopping at Marcus's in New London for my Levi's, going to the Mall to get a new coat, and then of course, the bookstores for supplies and more books. This is the first year since we have gotten married that we are NOT moving, we are both enjoying New Hampshire and talking about maybe in another 2 years buying up here. We have found our Starrs Hollow, so now the question is will it last?

In this economy you never know, we are both grateful for working and paying our bills, but we are not dumb and know in order to keep it flowing we have to do whatever it takes for the company to keep our positions.

I am a huge Fox News fan, and watched this young man on the news, and was thinking what the h*** is the school district thinking, isn't this the type of young man you want to represent your town and country. Here is the article.

"The upstate New York school superintendent who suspended an Eagle Scout for 20 days for keeping a 2-inch utility knife locked in his car is unwilling to speak to the teen's family or bend in his ruling.

Lansingburgh Central School District Superintendent George J. Goodwin, 55, said in a written statement that his district "has an established policy of zero tolerance with respect to the possession of weapons of any kind on school property or in school buildings."

But nowhere in the school district's rule book, which is published online, is there any mention of a "zero tolerance" policy, leading some to question whether Goodwin, in fact, was compelled to suspend the youth.

Seventeen-year-old Matthew Whalen, a senior at Lansingburgh High School in Troy, N.Y., says he got in trouble over a survival kit he keeps in his car that includes a sleeping bag, water, a ready-to-eat meal and the small pocketknife, which was given to him by his grandfather, a police chief in a nearby town."

My heart goes out to Matthew Whalen, I saw him on the intereview he looked uncomfortable and visibly upset that his dream career might be dashed by this incident. Here is a respectful young man who wasn't causing any problem just being prepared isn't that what the military trains?

As I sit here on a Saturday night, I worry about the husband and work ok. The husband has hurt himself, he sprained his ankle and is now on crutches. I do not think he has ever been on crutches before, and it was quite amusing watching him try to maneuver. It also, made me feel superior for once in our whole relationship, I knew something he didn't, it may be childish but still made me feel good.

I have sprained both my ankles at least 3x each, I have broken my toe twice, and then of course there is my knee. So, I have been on crutches many times. The last time was at least 10 years ago and they were made of wood, or a wood like substance and they were heavy. Now, they are made of aluminum, and very light.

You realize as you get older that it is not so easy or fast to recover from any injury. We do not have health insurance but since he hurt himself at work, they are paying for it.

Its fall, and it is beautiful up here in NH. We went to "Chowderfest" yesterday,
I do know about the fact it was for charity, but we still lost the competition. I am not all that competitive, but we didn't even place. Then we came home and had a nice early evening together.

The husband had to go into work, due to someone not coming into work, My heart says it will be only for a little while, but my head knows that once you step into the restaurant you are pretty stuck for hours. I am in no way mad at him, just disappointed due to the fact even though we work together, we never see each other.

I miss my husband, he does seem very happy about working at the restaurant, he was born to be in the industry that he walked away from 4 years ago. I have to just suck it up.

Well, its Friday night, and a bit chilly here in NH, so I am under a blanket watching, "CSI:Miami" and hoping the phone does not ring for the party at the hotel. I hate that I have to stress everytime I leave the office, and wonder if my staff can actually handle it without me.

My husband is still working and I miss spending time with him, we are having such a hard time connecting with him back working nights. So, when w
e have our 2 days off we try to catch up. I know it sounds lame since we work in the same building but it is different when you are at work, and when you are home.

This weekend we are actually working an event together on Sunday, luckily its a day event, and we will still have the evening and the whole next day together. Up here in NH it certainly does feel as if Winter is coming, the colors are so vibrant for the autumn, my favorite time of year, but it is getting really chilly in the evenings, so it does feel as if winter is coming just no snow right now.

I am very much looking forward to winter, why?