Ok, so on Monday evening, my husband swore he had his last cigarette an he wanted me to throw out the ashtrays, but in my heart of hearts I knew it was going to take awhile.  Last night, he had a breakdown and was a complete "dick" to me, I had to drive him to the store to pick up cigarettes, he always thought he could quit anytime but after 20 years of smoking not so easy on your own.

I hate that he smokes and want him to get healthy, but unless he is doing it for himself he can never quit. You have to want to do it for yourself not for me.  I know I need to lose weight but until I am willing to do the work and commit to it for Me! It is so not going to happen.

I realize it is so tough, and saw it in him the last few nights he would go to bed early to not deal with the antsy feeling!  He now is trying to wean himself off of the cigarettes, we will have to wait and see if it happens. I believe he can do it, but he needs to want to do it, not keep saying he is doing it for me.

http://www.norwichbulletin.com/news/x624602867/Norwichtown-Mall-construction-begins?img=2#axzz1vueOMWkk

This link is about the Norwichtown Mall closing and being reborn "Norwichtown Commons".
Growing up the "mall' was the cool place to hang out, we would ride our bikes there, my first job was Sunday's at Caledors in the jewerly department. The Arcade was the place to see the boy you liked, and Styles is where you would do your back to school shopping. Need a gift, why not the Drugstore?  Going to the roller ring, stop at the drugstore to get your bonnie bell strawberry lip gloss..

Hang out with friends at the Bee Bee Diary Bar. It has been in need of new stores, and a refresh look for many years, I have such great memories it is nice to see it getting some TLC.

Start of Memorial Day weekend 2012, and I heard on the news this morning that of the million people traveling today most will be in their cars. Top Destinations: Las Vegas, NY, Mrytle Beach and Atlantic City.  I myself am working and then on Sunday going over to Long Lake in Maine to see my mom.

Unfortunately, not spending time with the whole family that will have to wait until July 4.  I want everyone to remember why we celebrate Memorial Day, not for the hot dogs for our troops who fought and seeing fighting for our rights.

This weekend had a "Sail Cloth Tent" From Lakes Region Tent Company, it was such a beautiful weekend about 80' sunny here are some pictures.

 I have been so depressed lately, part of it is coming back from vacation the other I feel lost in my work life.  It also doesn't help that is has rained everyday since I got back. Today, is beautiful but it has not improved my mood at that much.

I have been handling weddings and social events for over 20+years, and yes it is rewarding and during the events it is fun to be up and making sure everyone and everything is on point. It is so much work to get to the day, and that can get you down but for me it is the lack of respect I get from bosses.

The big boss likes to tell me to call all these other wedding people to get their feedback because he obviously does not think I know how to do my job or how to maximize my time and space, or even how to market my wedding market.  I can always use some guidance but it is continous, we all know he has his favorites on property and who he trusts and I am not one of them.   He jokes around but I know he is serious, he does that to cover up his lack of respect or believable in me and my contributions to the hotel.

I understand different personalities and all of that, but if you look at the numbers for the 1st quarter myu booking goal was $117,583, and I booked $192,368, for April my booking goal was $53,820 and I booked $78,000.   When we get our reports on how many calls every property made weekly, I am in the middle.  Once, he put what each of us booked that week and I was number 1 in booking $ wise, but down in calls I got no acknowledgement.  Since, then he has never put what each person booked that week. The husband thinks because he does not want to acknowledge I am a damn good sales person.

It is so hard to stay motivated when I get nothing, except told what I am doing wrong. I am still so mad about my review, I have been checking off everything that was said to make sure I am doing exactly what I was given points off on, it is just so depressing to get no respect.

My whole career I have been praised, given awards, offers to come back to previous jobs and here I get no respect. I have never had a boss so blantant not respect me or my ability and also, so obviously favor other people over another.  When he was hired everyone is like he is so fair, and wonderful to work for, I must be missing something or this was said by his favorites.  I have tried to overcome how he treated my husband and I watch his 3 replacements, flail  but they are the saviors, the summer will be interesting.  He set the husband up to fail, so he could bring in his own team and I feel my days are numbered too..

I love this place, we have been here 3 1/2 years and this is our 4th summer, so it is upsetting to feel you are being ousted when all I have worked for over the winter is about to happen.

Well, we spent the week in Illinois, we spent time with the husband's family until Thursday, then we went into Chicago.  On Friday, we went to a Cubs game, they won! It was so cold! We went to an ATM near the field and I believe this is when it happened! What happened you may ask?  Well on Saturday, we had tickets to a "Dine around" and we were both looking forward to it, so we decided to lounge and relax around the hotel then at 3pm go into the city.  We went to lunch and found out our Debit card was cloned and cleaned out.

At lunch, the server swiped our card and we went on line and found out only $37 dollars in our account, so not right! Our paycheck went in on Friday!  Someone had gotten our number an cloned our debit card and were going across Colorado on their way we guess to Nebraska! We cxl our cards and had no money! So how were we to get home? You have to pay for your baggage now, so we called United to see if they could help us, I got a person with a major accent and basically 3x told me there is no waiver! Then we cashed a check at the Hotel, thankfully, but when we got to the airport and tried to pay cash, United again awful customer service! Luckily, one girl was fantastic and helped us but her co-workers were awful!!

So, our trip ended on a bad note! I noticed my little mirror cracked, is this why we had bad luck?