Coming up on my six months since we moved to the further north and my new career move. I was asked yesterday, do you like your new job? I had to really think about that answer, is this the right move for me?
At first I felt I was taking my pay when I really was not doing what a Director should be doing, then our Director of Sales/Marketing left, so I started to pick up their duties. I actually like some of the reports, because it can measure our progress, on the other hand some of it seems redundant. I believe that comes from almost every hospitality company.
One of my biggest stresses is not the lack of a DOS/M it is my CSM we seem to butt heads at every opportunity, I have read the books on how to handle your staff, and I am trying to be a professional but part of me sometimes wants to jump over the desk and slam their head into the computer and say "snap out of it". When I ask you something is not thinking you can not do your job it is to see if I can help or a report that I need for the higher ups.
I hate to admit it, after all my b****ing, I miss weddings. Yes, I miss my over demanding brides and their moms, but I felt I had a purpose when I was helping them with their big day. It used to stress me out about watching the weather and trying to get all the players in the right place at the right time. I never let them know I was stressed but there was definately moments.
The husband really likes our new place and the area, so we will be here for awhile I think. He does not really want to move again, and I do feel the company I work for appreciates me as an employee. I do not know why I have an uneasy feeling but I do, and not sure when that might change. I admit I like having a fancy title in business is that wrong? Does that make me shallow? Or is it because growing up, no one thought I could acheive anything? Or am I projecting my own insecurities?
So, basically I still have not answered the question, I really do not know. I have no idea where I am headed either in my career or in my life at the moment.
